letter to my angel..

Hello there angel, its been a while since I have thought of you, I feel guilty. It's just so hard, harder than I ever imagined it would be. Your due date is in 2 months, I should be feeling your kicks and hiccups, and learning your schedule...but instead there is just emptiness. No growing belly, no cute little stretches...nothing.
My heart is so heavy today..I miss you. I'm scared of your birthday my love, I'm scared of the pain that will arise. Instead of celebrating your life, my arms will be empty. My heart aching.
I havent looked at your picture since daddy and I moved, its just too painful. To know you were still there when it was taken, to know I still carried you my love, it just hurts. To know that it might have been the moment before you left, or the moment after just tortures my being.

Your daddy misses you too sweet angel, he doesnt talk about it much, but I feel the pain in him everytime his hand runs across my belly and you're not there. Our hearts are broken little one, just shattered still after these months of grieving. We just can't let you go. We were so happy, why couldnt you stay? We would have made you so happy. There would be so much loved poured onto you everyday...I have to believe that there was something more that you were needed for. I have to believe that one day when your mission is finished god will let you come back. You still mean so much to us angel, I just have to believe it.

I love you so much sweet child, please continue looking over us and your big brothers

I will love you forever sweet baby

-mommy-

I felt the need yall, I have been fine lately, it just all hit.me at once today. My heart is still so broken, how do I get pass this?

I'm sorry for your loss. I've had 4 miscarriages and know the pain you're feeling. If you need to talk, feel free to PM me.

That's so sweet. Made me tear up. I'm so sorry for your loss

Quoting **§~~emily~~§**:" I felt the need yall, I have been fine lately, it just all hit.me at once today. My heart is still so broken, how do I get pass this?"

You don't get past it, you don't get over it. You get through it, and eventually it gets easier. Good luck...and again, I'm so sorry...

<blockquote><b>Quoting Stephy B:</b>" You don't get past it, you don't get over it. You get through it, and eventually it gets easier. Good luck...and again, I'm so sorry..."</blockquote>



Totally agree

My life just feels like its missing something now.. my heart just has this huge hole. It seems crazy..I only carried him/her 12 short weeks(a day or two shy) but I still feel so broken over it.

Thank you all for your sweet encouraging words.. it means a lot to know that you are all there and know what its like

Quoting **§~~emily~~§**:" My life just feels like its missing something now.. my heart just has this huge hole. It seems crazy..I only carried him/her 12 short weeks(a day or two shy) but I still feel so broken over it."

That's normal, and there's nothing wrong with it. The best advice I can give you is to not try to grieve and get over it as fast as you think you should. Give yourself time, let yourself cry. But know that when you go a few days without thinking about the baby, it's okay. It's okay to feel guilty too, but don't forget that at some point *your* life has to go on. I know it sucks, I've been there, but its the truth. Like I said, I've been where you are, and if you wanna talk, just PM me.

Quoting Stephy B:" You don't get past it, you don't get over it. You get through it, and eventually it gets easier. Good luck...and again, I'm so sorry..."

This. Exactly this.