so depressed

My daughter passed away 6 weeks ago. She was 6 days old. Basically a lot of people I know are either pregnant or trying. I want another baby so bad but my husband wants to wait because hes not emotionally ready. I don't know when he will be and it makes me sad. I really want another girl. My daughter was going to be my last child so now im sad because I have to go through another pregnancy to get the child I want. I miss her so much. She was so freakin beautiful like I know I am just saying that because I am her mother,but really she was. We still don't even know what caused her death and this was September!! I can never have fun doing anything she's all I think about. When will things get better? Because me and my husband feel pretty hopeless right now.

So sorry momma   I lost my son at 2 days old due to being micro preemie due to an undetected infection. It has been over 5 years and it still hurts so bad.

Personally I would wait. You need time to heal. Another baby right now would only replace your daughter. Imo that is. I think you need to truly get through it as much as possible so you can enjoy another baby as its own person and it be conceived and carried without pain in your heart.

So sorry for your loss i couldn't imagine what your going through. hugs!

I just don't know what killed her..she was born at 38 weeks perfectly healthy. I think thats the part that hurts the most because I feel like I failed as a mother some how.

<blockquote><b>Quoting my angel savannah:</b>" I just don't know what killed her..she was born at 38 weeks perfectly healthy. I think thats the part that hurts the most because I feel like I failed as a mother some how."</blockquote>




I know what you mean bc I felt like I should have known I had an infection even thou I kept going to get tested. I should have pushed them to do more when I was in labor and so on.

But it is not your fault and you did not fail.  

Hugs  

So sorry for your loss!! I cant even imagine! I know exactly what you mean by everyone around you is either pregnant or recently gave birth. Its so hard to cope with that just after a loss!!!  

Just know that it will get better, it has to, but its still fresh and raw, just give yourself and your hubby time to heal. Feel what you need to feel, cry, scream, do what ever you need. There is no right answer.