Quoting Tiffany ღ:" Wow, I am so sorry for your loss. Unfortunately I can kind of relate. My dad passed and my mom re-married ... [snip!] ... will know when you're ready. Don't rush into things, things will play out like they are supposed to. Keep your head up♥"
I'm trying :-(
I try to make a point to talk to William about his daddy but even for me it can feel rather empty. He died when William was 7 months old and after awhile, he stopped saying "daddy" because there was no one to identify that with.
William is 3 now. I am afraid of being with someone only to fill the void but what I truly want is a man who wants to be there for William, too. I don't even know if that exists. There are even people who don't even choose to be there for him... Even Andrew's best friend... Who was suppose to be William's uncle appointed BY Andrew. He makes excuses as to why he doesn't come by and it hurts me because I know that Andrew wanted to be with us
. He chose us and it sucks that the last person who actually made me feel like we
(William and I) were important is the one who can no longer be here.
I try to stay positive but its these stupid sentimental memories >_<
I even tried to remember how Andrew would have sounded if he were to see William in his costume this year... because I wanted to share my excitement with something
GOD I feel so pathetic tonight.UGHHH