No more babies??

So i've been wanting to post this for awhile, just havent until now. Little history about me. I have 4 babys, oldest will be 6 in dec,second was 4 in july, 3rd (angel baby) will be 3 in july, and i just had my last baby may of this year. Now i always wanted 3 babies at home, thats why we tryed one last time after our stillbirth of 2010. Now i thought id be happy with three and i didnt want to be any older then i am now having babies. I am only 23 but i love being a younger mom and i can still live my life when they are moved out. So we didnt even have to think twice for me to get fixed during my c-section when i had our last baby. Now fincially 3 is good for us. So that was another reason to stop at 3. But seeing others pregnant and knowing i'll never be pregnant again is really sinking in now. My son till be 6 months on the 3rd and i already have baby fever. I feel as though im not enjoying him as much as im holding onto wanting him to be a newborn again. I always joke and say that i'd be the next 19 kids and counting i swear. I love everything about newborn babys. The sleepless nights,poopy bums,everything. I dont regret my decision because it needed to be done, and with me wanting it so badly im glad im fixed so i cant easily turn to being pregnant. But it just feels as though im 'forced' to not be pregnant again if that makes sense. Cause i would have been pregnant yesterday if i could. Ugh, im just in such a funk about it all. Damn babies just suck ya right in! lol. Anyway, just wondering if any other mommas out there who are fixed feel the same way? Im sure i'll be ok with it one day, i get to focus on losing wait and i cant wait for the future with our 3 kids here but for now, its so hard to get past. Sorry this is long and i appreciate anyone who takes time to read it and responds!

I do it and still do it!! Great idea! Between all of my kids candy goes into the New year! I'am the parent that checks all candy despite their age and allow them a certain amount per day!!

Quoting MommyMasters:" So i've been wanting to post this for awhile, just havent until now. Little history about me. I have ... [snip!] ... here but for now, its so hard to get past. Sorry this is long and i appreciate anyone who takes time to read it and responds! "

I'am sorry Mommy i commented in the wrong place!

hahaha as i was first reading it i was like wtf?? LOL no worries!

I had my tubes tied 6 weeks after I had my daughter & as soon as walked into my house afterwards..I bawled my eyes out because I couldn't have any more babies! My husband was like..why are u crying? You wanted this done! But I didn't know that's how I would feel! I was so sad for a couple days! But she now 8 months & I'm kinda glad that I did cuz I would be pregnant right now! It will get better I promise!

im sorry you felt that way after but i totally get what you mean. Ive had one close friend get pregnant and i told her i was so jealous at the same time as being so incredibly happy for them, a week after she found out she miscarried i felt SOO bad. But she understood what i was meaning by saying i was jealous. People say everyday when they see me in town with my 3 kids and say so are you done now? I find it so rude, kids are amazing gifts and id have them till my body wouldnt allow me anymore if i could. I was a teen mom, i had my first born on my 18th birthday, and it changed my life for the better. I love my kids, i love being pregnant, i love not having my sanity at some point everyday! LOL. Damn im going to miss it when they are really grown up. I really hope i have that light at the end of the tunnel though!

Quoting MommyMasters:" hahaha as i was first reading it i was like wtf?? LOL no worries!"

LMBO omg omg first off i start by saying I would do it , i still do it..LOL great coming from a mom of 10..lolol

Quoting MommyMasters:" im sorry you felt that way after but i totally get what you mean. Ive had one close friend get pregnant ... [snip!] ... LOL. Damn im going to miss it when they are really grown up. I really hope i have that light at the end of the tunnel though!"

I know what it means to feel this way! Well said and thanks for sharing this!