Youcan find update one and the backstory here..
So, Just in the past week, I have lightened my work load. So that im down to only two days a week, The rest of my time is spent at school in the morning to finnish up my GED, then i spend the rest of the day with LO. (BD is still here so he keeps her while im at school.. even though he doesnt want to) I have been about two and half weeks late on my cycle, i took a test it showed negative, (im on BC) No big deal.. So I have taken BD out a few times this week, We have been kicking it, drinking and just enjoying each other, i figure.. why not.. hes still here .. lets make the best of it.. even set up play dates with one of my guy friends whom he has ALOT in common with. They chill and have hit it off great. Last night me and BD went out to the state fair and road rides..and had a pretty decent time..This morning i went out with LO to get my check and to make pick ups (Diapers wipes ect) I get a few crippling cramps followed by a gush of blood.. Curious am i becasue i have been told that after sometime you may or may not get a period with IMPLANON..last month i had one for a week, all the months prior to that, i bled every other month for the druation of the month (Ive had it for about seven months now) So the thought crossed my mind of of course what if the test i took was wrong..but im not dwelling on it.. Anyway back to my other updates.. SOOOO.. like i said My BD and i are trying to make the best of things and be "friends" Now twice since all this smurf has gone down between us, i have asked to be intimate with him.. he of course allows it..but the other night (after the fair) he tells me he isnt comfortable with it.. really.. that this isnt something that "friends" do.. I explained to him that i see no problem with it while we still share a home together because for obvious reasons we will not be able to sleep together once he leaves. and that if he really wasnt comfortable with it.. then he wouldnt so obviously its not THAT big of a deal. Whatever. The issues i have at the moment are, when im here, he does nothing.. i mean NOTHING to take care of her, he will play with her..sure.. but he wont feed her, change her or anything.. im here and thats "my job as a mother" and it doesnt matter what im trying to accomplish that day..(Other then school..wich he does bitch about when i get ready to leave.) He only takes care of her when im gone..(as in school or work) becasue HE HAS TOO..not be cause he wasnts too.. and he says this is only becasue "You get a break, you go to school and you go to work. So thats your time off, when you are here you have duties as a mother" Honestly hes starting to do nothing more then piss me off.. I have tried to show him a good time and make some sort of a social life with him again and have a friendship..but its like hes not even there when we are out doing stuff, hes constantly on his phone ..and just.. idk..I just hate it..I wish i could make him realize that when he walks out that door that it will be something he will regret for the rest of his life.