Quoting Thunderchunk:" I purposely lost as much weight as I could before starting to TTC again just in case I did gain extra ... [snip!] ... tell myself the size 3x shirts I was buying were just cut really small lol. You're beautiful though. Good luck with everything!"
That last part, I'm like that too. Like I'm really good about ignoring my weight or how I look. Like before I started to lose weight last summer I honestly had NO CLUE I looked like that. I saw some pics that DH took of me at my kids tball game and I was in utter shock. I just sat there and cried staring at them. I had no idea that's what I really looked like.
I have a pretty face, so subconsciously I only look at my face when I'm getting dressed and stuff and I ignore my body. I'm like in denial about it. When I know I'm gaining weight I avoid wearing clothes that I suspect might not fit me and I avoid full length mirrors. Then like today I walked into the bathroom at Buffalo Wild Wings and they had a full length mirror right as you walked out and I saw myself and freaked out. It's clear I've gained about 20 lbs and I just ignore it.
That's all REALLY great advice though. Thank you for sharing. And thanks for not bringing up any smurf about my relationship like most people on BG would. I was worried when I started posting about possibly TTC that everyone would start preaching to me about my relationship and stuff. Things are going MUCH better between us BTW, especially since I started depression and anxiety meds about 6-8 weeks ago. I've noticed a lot of changes and I feel so much better and honestly, I think a lot of our problems were steaming from me....so I'm glad I'm feeling kind of normal again.