I've noticed the closer my due date gets, the more emotional I am becoming. It is a beautiful thing because I will literally break into tears and cry harder than I've ever cried because I am so thankful to be a mother. Every time I see his ultrasound I cannot believe that he will be here soon and I will be able to hold him finally. My husband and I were both told that we would most likely not be able to conceive and sure enough we found out we're pregnant and expecting a boy on December 21st. He is our little Christmas miracle . Although, I cannot help but freak out and worry about every little thing and it kills me because I don't want him to feel stress and worry because of me. I haven't been able to work this entire pregnancy due to health issues and although my husband has a great job, we are just getting by. Today was especially bad because we started to discuss money problems and I couldn't help but break down into tears because I am so afraid to bring him into this world when we are not doing as good as we could be. I've always said I want to be a stay at home mom for at least six months so I can give my DS all of my love and attention, but I am fearing that I wont be able to do this. We are able to get help from our family which is amazing, but I hate having to rely on other people, especially when I'm not working. Ugh I don't know, I just needed to vent, because I really don't have anyone to talk to these days and this really helped with the anxiety I was feeling. Thanks to everyone that reads this, like I said I really don't have anyone to talk to other than my husband, and I could really use someone to lean on at the moment <3
Have you considered getting a job that you can work from home at your own pace? I'm going to school now (which I need to get back to my studies) to be a Medical Claims & Billing Specialist so I can work at home and take care of my son.
I am also in the same situation. SO is the only one working and I feel horrible that I can't bring in any form of money to help. I cry everyday while he is at work because of it. I know he told me that if he didn't have to pay so much in child support, he would let me be a stay at home mom.
I can give you the information later. I don't have it on me at the moment. Lol. The place I am going through is a college type institute and they are very supportive. They are actually meant for those who are long distance and want to do schooling on their own.
I'm in the same boat. I can't work because the type of work I was doing was too stressful and in the middle of my pregnancy I was hospitalized over night because of anxiety among other things so my midwife said if I could afford it to not work. My husband is working two jobs right now and I feel bad that I can't bring anything to the table so I try to keep the apartment clean and have dinner on the table to make up for not bringing in any money. Myself and SO have always wanted me to be a stay at home mother until our child goes into pre-school but now that can't happen. I'm looking into online schooling right now that way I can go to school and be home with our baby. Good luck to you, I know how hard it can be, if you need any support you can PM me!