Is that my mom? i cant tell w/o the screaming....

oooohhhkay, soI recently got out of the military and am now a full time stay at home mom. I love not having to go to a job I hate, but it's a huge adjustment having to deal with my two kids (ages 4 and 2) all by myself most of the time 24/7 since my hubby works pretty late. And since my kids are home now they are adjusting to not going to daycares too. And by adjusting, I mean, having fun pushing mommy's buttons until I explode.
I try to be patient but it seems like I have to scream at them just to get them to pick up a single toy! they never listen, they ingore half of what I say and they constantly antagonize each other. they have their good days too but 80% of the time, it's not so peachy.
Now I know it's common and it's normal and all that other who-ha, but i'm also pregnant right now (26 wks) and I'm starting to worry that my obis going to diagnose me with hypertension some time in the next 3 mo during my 3rd trimester. i practically scream myself hoarse and I immediately get braxton hicks bc my blood pressure sky rockets and my whole body feels like I just drank like 9 cups of espresso!it scares the baby and he immediately starts bouncing around in my tummy and jabbing me back and forth....i'm getting it from outside and in.
It's ridiculous. I try to calm myself and breathe but i snap. hormones+little screaming children+24/7=crazy mommy

I joke that this 3rdkid wont even recognize my voice when he's born unless I'm screaming...... now, I'm starting to think it may not be so much of a joke, but a reality.


ahhhh! just had to vent.