Quoting Sonia[MOBAS]:" My DS is 8 and he drives me up a smurfing wall, he gets into trouble in school and other adults have a ... [snip!] ... I have even thought about death in the past as a way to not have to deal anymore, luckily I get through it. You are not alone."
I'm not close to any of my family really. My mom and I have been having problems. I get more help than some moms do and I appreciate that, but I don't have the support. I just want to scream. I feel like I'm getting worn down physically and emotionally from this and that if I have to do this for another year I'll end up giving her to someone that deserves to have her. I just don't see how people do this alone, or how people do this with more kids, or with husbands/boyfriends that don't care or take part in it. It is completely terrifying and stressing me out to levels I've never experienced just thinking about being a mom for the rest of my life, always struggling to provide for her and make the best decisions I can. I want to just sleep for like...a year and not have to worry about anything. lol.
I'm slowly but surely coming out of that suicidal mindset. I had absent parents and I don't want Addie to ever think she wasn't good enough to have me stay for her.