I love Peace Tea.

Man, I could really go for one right now.

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Hmm... interesting... I honestly think you may need some psychological help...

Keep your head up...

I would talk to someone, I went througb the same thing when my son was about 2. I'm still dealing with it, but things have got much better. I left my son with my grandma for a week at a time sometimes (not ideal) but I was going nuts. I hope things get better for you. Talking helped me a lot.

Quoting MrsSinatra:" Hmm... interesting... I honestly think you may need some psychological help... Keep your head up..."

I'm getting that, thanks.

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Quoting sua madre bella:" I would talk to someone, I went througb the same thing when my son was about 2. I'm still dealing with ... [snip!] ... for a week at a time sometimes (not ideal) but I was going nuts. I hope things get better for you. Talking helped me a lot."

I've tried, but I just.. I don't know. I can't say it to anyone without it sounding like I don't want her. I do. I WANT to want her if that makes sense.

I try not to leave her with family, but when I finally break down and do, they make me feel like smurf. My aunt took her over night the other night so I could sleep because I have CFS and I haven't been sleeping well...she OFFERED but then called my mom and said it didn't look good that I let her take her...um, what?

Being ill doesn't help that unfortunately. I feel the same way sometimes honestly. Remember if you start to get frustrated take a big deep breath or go out of the room for a minute. It's tough, I would talk to someone if you aren't already that may help.

<blockquote><b>Quoting MrsSinatra:</b>" Hmm... interesting... I honestly think you may need some psychological help... Keep your head up..."</blockquote>




Thats rude... people have feeling it doesn't mean they are crazy

Is there anyone who can watch her for even an hour so you can get some down time? I hope things get better for you.

Quoting MrsSinatra:" Hmm... interesting... I honestly think you may need some psychological help... Keep your head up..."

Wow, way to be a bitch.

Quoting Sonia[MOBAS]:" My DS is 8 and he drives me up a smurfing wall, he gets into trouble in school and other adults have a ... [snip!] ... I have even thought about death in the past as a way to not have to deal anymore, luckily I get through it. You are not alone."

I'm not close to any of my family really. My mom and I have been having problems. I get more help than some moms do and I appreciate that, but I don't have the support. I just want to scream. I feel like I'm getting worn down physically and emotionally from this and that if I have to do this for another year I'll end up giving her to someone that deserves to have her. I just don't see how people do this alone, or how people do this with more kids, or with husbands/boyfriends that don't care or take part in it. It is completely terrifying and stressing me out to levels I've never experienced just thinking about being a mom for the rest of my life, always struggling to provide for her and make the best decisions I can. I want to just sleep for like...a year and not have to worry about anything. lol.

I'm slowly but surely coming out of that suicidal mindset. I had absent parents and I don't want Addie to ever think she wasn't good enough to have me stay for her.

I get so overwhelmed and feel like my son would be better off without me, because he makes me crazy, but I am very strong willed and I force myself to focus on the good. Its got so much bettter over time at one point I thought I was done and didn't deseve to live. A lot of mine is depression I this k, I'm going to talk to my doctor about it.

Quoting 1st1ontheway:" Is there anyone who can watch her for even an hour so you can get some down time? I hope things get better for you."

I'm lucky that I do get the help that I get! I get at least a few hours a week to myself even if it just means being able to catch up on housework and such or going to McDonald's and grabbing a bite without her there. I really do appreciate that. I just..I don't know. If I got the help I need every time I needed it I'd be a part time mom. =[ I hate admitting that. Thank you.

Quoting sua madre bella:" I get so overwhelmed and feel like my son would be better off without me, because he makes me crazy, ... [snip!] ... I thought I was done and didn't deseve to live. A lot of mine is depression I this k, I'm going to talk to my doctor about it."

I'm about to start therapy with a new doctor/psychiatrist. I know it won't fix everything, but I'm hoping it makes me more patient at least. Everyone needs help for this sometimes.

Quoting Chroma Hex [+1]:" I'm not close to any of my family really. My mom and I have been having problems. I get more help than ... [snip!] ... suicidal mindset. I had absent parents and I don't want Addie to ever think she wasn't good enough to have me stay for her."

Hold on to those words as much as possible. You know what it felt like and you know how it made you feel. Correct me if I am wrong but it sounds like you are feeling hopeless, I have too in the past. If you are coming out of the suicidal mindset then you are possibly getting to a better place but it will take time. You have to take some time to yourself though. How old is she?