Like you need a break really bad but don't want one cause then you will miss them?!
That's how I feel right about now. I have one person always willing to take baby and can be trusted. But I will just miss her too much to let her go. Ugh. I have let her go before in the past but honestly we have become alot more attatched to each other since then.
I am so sleep deprived. I can't even have sex with SO without her waking up crying. I just want to sleep. I want to go out with SO. I want to be able to go outside and smoke AZ much as I please. Its currently 5am and my kid just dozed off. Idk what's her with her Marley. But I am going crazy. Ugh.
I can relate. I am very stressed and I love the kids and don't want to be away from them, but I do want to be away from the stress and demands of life and parenting. I am planning on going to a nursing conference in a month with a co-worker/friend and I'm hoping that being away for that overnight will help, but I will likely just worry about how they are doing and if the sitter is managing ok. Blah it's hard. OP I hope you can find time to decompress and recharge