Um why arent your worth it??
You are a strong mama with a will to carry on. I think that is more than enough. Who is to say this is a permanent situation or that you dont deserve the best of the best??? You need to get that negativity out of your head.
I thought the same with my DH when I met him. I finally said I was worth it and now we are married with a little one on the way. And I was divorced living at home with TONS of debt and he still loved me for me.
How do u know ur not good enough?? He sees what ur potential is, and u don't sound like a bum... lol, give him a chance maybe someone like him is what u need to get motivated and better urself?? When I met my now husband I was dancing and modeling partying and just being wreckless... he a rn, has 2 degrees was looking to get back in school his own house ect. It kinda put me in a position where I had to decide do I want this, or him, and had to change, eventually I got my license also, now I have my house, and thinking about getting back into school again for something diff...
I already told him he is way out of my league, and he told me to take everything away and if at the end of the day we are both still human, to get that stupid thought out of my head :-) I am going for it. Wish me luck.