<blockquote><b>Quoting Iyahna :^P:</b>" Im sorry mama.Hardest feeling anyone can ever go through.My pregnancy was not planned,the guy who i was ... [snip!] ... children and getting married in JULY.I should get over it because its been awhile.Idk but you should know how much it hurts,"</blockquote>
Feel blessed that you found someone that cares and loves you plus you have two beautiful kids together. Focus on your wedding you dont want to be a sad bride and look over you wedding pictures with a sad face. Maybe it happend for a reason your baby wasnt going to have its real father by its side and having to deal with the wife and kids and child support hun. You need to talk to someone about your emotions. It seems you are devasted to this day what you found out about him and to put the cherry on top you lost your baby. Is terrible hun but you have people around you that do care about you and is smurfed up that you cant be fully there to take their love in. Dont waste any more tears for that jackass your baby will always be in your heart and you have to let your baby rest in peace by you crying and been sad is making your angel baby sad too. Rest assure that your baby will always be looking down at you hun.
The holidays suck for many - no two ways about it. But you can change that. Takes a lot of conscious effort but you can turn it around for yourself, if even only a little. Start a new tradition this year, find a way to make it happier for you.