Long Bitchy Pointless Post

I'm so overwhelmed right now, and so upset and hurt by the people around me.

I have health issues, and they're starting to get worse.

When DD was a newborn, EVERY one wanted to help me with her. I almost didn't have a choice according to some people.

But now that stress is ruining my body, I can barely get around, and I'm so sick and nauseous and weak that I can't pick up a cup with one hand, where is everyone? No where.

DD is so high maintenance. I love her to death, but compared to my friend's kids, she is just up the wall. Everything is hers and there's a way to get to everything in her book. I'm up chasing her nonstop all day, we never get a chill moment, even if it means me limping around or having to use a walking stick to get to her.

I'm twenty smurfing one years old. I'm so tired of pain. I'm so tired of being sick. I'm so tired of living like this. I'm too young for this. I just want to break down in tears right now. The only reason I'm even online is because if I don't do SOMETHING I feel like I'll pass out. I was up throwing up all night, and now it hurts even to breathe.

Guys I don't know what to do. I really am overwhelmed. I have no help, and I know there are plenty of single moms that say the same thing...but doing this alone is starting to smurf with my health. I never sleep, I never get to shower, I almost never eat because I put what little I have into DD completely. She's my drive and my everything but I honestly feel like trying to put this all on myself is killing me.

I need help so badly. I'm finally ready to admit that and now no one is there. I don't know how much longer I can keep this up on my own. She needs someone that can play with her and keep up with her constantly and I just can't do that right now. I'm running on about two hours of sleep, and I just don't even know how I'm going to make it through the day today.

I'm so sorry honey.
I know how you feel, even without being a single mom.
I just looked at your profile, I kinda have no idea why I've never read it before actually lol
We have... pretty much every single thing in common. Including our disorders. You can PM me if you want to talk whenever you want.

I hope you can find some help <3

Quoting InkDMomma:" I'm so sorry honey. I know how you feel, even without being a single mom. I just looked at your profile, ... [snip!] ... in common. Including our disorders. You can PM me if you want to talk whenever you want. I hope you can find some help <3"

Thank you. I know I'm just feeling sorry for myself but I feel like if I don't sit here and cry for a while I'll end up slamming my head through a wall. It's nice and sad at the same time to know other people feel the same way.

I'm sorry, if we lives close I would help, I feel that way at times and. I'm married and still feel single sometimes!

Quoting Chroma Hex [+1]:" Thank you. I know I'm just feeling sorry for myself but I feel like if I don't sit here and cry for ... [snip!] ... a while I'll end up slamming my head through a wall. It's nice and sad at the same time to know other people feel the same way."

I mean I have help and I still get that way when I have my "crazy days" and flare ups. It's smurfing god awful.
Those days I usually lock myself in the bathroom and cry.

No one understands my emotional roller coaster and it pisses me off. Smurf that doesn't matter to most people makes me so angry and upset to the point where I feel like I am going to have a break down and everyone thinks I'm an attention whore or a smurfing bitch. I can't help it! I don't have control over my emotions.

Quoting InkDMomma:" I mean I have help and I still get that way when I have my "crazy days" and flare ups. It's smurfing ... [snip!] ... down and everyone thinks I'm an attention whore or a smurfing bitch. I can't help it! I don't have control over my emotions."

I feel the same way, but no one cares. They just think I'm being a bitch or overreacting. No one thinks about the fact that I've been in and out of therapy and have been on medication for the past 7 years. It's just...ughhh. I wish they would get out of my life completely if they're not being supportive. Everyone has the nerve to tell me what they think I should be doing but no one is willing to help!

I'm so sorry you go through that. It's hell that I wouldn't wish on anyone. It really is.

STOP     

I was a single, full time working mom of 3, I feel your pain. You need to find balance.
You have a daughter, if you need a bath and she does too, take y'alls bath together.
Take y'alls naps together in the same bed
Eat at the same time and have the same thing
Watch family movies that you both will like ....maybe she will like a lil more than you but you get to rest your body. 
Schedule,schedule,schedule!!!!!
if she wants to do special things, have a rewards chart..if she does enough good things like be good,clean her room,ect,ect she gets point to a extra fun day.
I am not trying to be harsh i'm trying to help....put your foot down and make time limits and rules for her.
You can do it!!!!!!!!!!, I hope things get better...best wishes.

Quoting VERONICA. MOM OF 6:" STOP      I was a single, full time working mom of 3, I feel your pain. You need to find balance. ... [snip!] ... your foot down and make time limits and rules for her. You can do it!!!!!!!!!!, I hope things get better...best wishes."

She just turned a year old on Saturday. I have really bad OCD and I don't feel comfortable even being in the bathroom with her. I'll make stuff for both of us but I won't have the energy to eat or do anything after taking care of her. She's not really into watching TV, she'd rather play. I really appreciate the help, but I think I'm kind of stuck for now. =[

Quoting VERONICA. MOM OF 6:" STOP      I was a single, full time working mom of 3, I feel your pain. You need to find balance. ... [snip!] ... your foot down and make time limits and rules for her. You can do it!!!!!!!!!!, I hope things get better...best wishes."

I know I'm late, but oh well.

Have you read OP's profile about her medical issues and stuff? She isn't saying this just cause it's hard being a single mom. She is saying all of this cause her body doesn't let her do everything she needs/wants.

Chroma (I can't for the life of me remember your name   ) I hope I explained this okay for you. I'm so sorry you are going through all of this. Like I've said before, if I had a car and could come help you, you would have to kick my ass outta your house. I hate that I'm so close and can't do anything to help.

PM me anytime you need to talk!

Quoting Chroma Hex [+1]:" She just turned a year old on Saturday. I have really bad OCD and I don't feel comfortable even being ... [snip!] ... She's not really into watching TV, she'd rather play. I really appreciate the help, but I think I'm kind of stuck for now. =["

I'm sorry to hear that. I hope things get better and I understand your pain...i'm going though some stuff myself now. If I was near she would be able to come to my home and play with my little girls. it will get better. buy a pack-n-play to put her in when you just cant take it anymore....better safe than sorry. I know you love your baby and every mom has her moment....best wishes.