anxiety and beginning to worry

Ok so please don't judge.
I have always had anxiety but been able to control it myself non medicated or any of that... I am now 37 weeks pregnant and my anxiety is at its all time high. I have always had dreams of.me dying in a car accident anf that has peaked my anxiety more than usual lately and I think its because I know that baby is due very soon, I never want to leave the house anymore because of the fear of getting in a wreck and such... I have also.been going into deep thought and "what-if's" of am I going to be a good mother, will she.love me, can I do this... Just stuff like that and it is beginning to stress me out! I know I am going to be a food mother and I have nothing to worry abiut because I had an amazing "teacher" (mother)... Basically what I'm saying / asking is what if I can't control my anxiety myself much longer what if when baby gets here it gets worse and really unhealthy, what if I have.to go see my doc about it and they try to give me meds my worry about.this is because I plan on breast feeding and I want to succeed at it I don't want this stupid anxiety to rain on my parade.... But I don't want to suffer from this stupid disease and not be able to enjoy every waking moment of my babys life.!!!!! Anxiety is exhausting  

You have to defer those thoughts when they start up. Try an catch yourself when you're thinking about those what ifs and think about something else, read a book, take deep breaths and think about happy things and how excited you are to see your bran new babies little face for the first time  

It takes time and practice, but it really helps.

You should let your doctor know about it now. With the hormone changes you go through after birth it can potentially get worse. I'm not trying to scare you or make the anxiety worse. I think we all get anxious prior to delivery but you know that you have struggled with this for years and you should jump on this now before it gets worse. There are meds you can be on while breastfeeding and breastfeeding can be difficult/cause anxiety and I'm speaking from experience I'm currently breastfeeding my 3 week old and it's not always easy. I have struggled with anxiety and depression and it honestly helps to tell people you feel this way so others can pay attention and notice any major changes in your demeanor. Your baby is going to love you and you will be a great mom, we all worry about those things. But the fact that you don't want to leave the house to me seems like you should really talk to someone about this before it gets worse. Hope this helped. No judgement here.

Quoting Sour Daisy:" You have to defer those thoughts when they start up. Try an catch yourself when you're thinking about ... [snip!] ... you are to see your bran new babies little face for the first time   It takes time and practice, but it really helps."

I agree with this too...I gets those damn what if thoughts too and you just have to defer yourself to something else sometimes.

It's also a really smart idea to tell your doc, like the other mama said. That doesn't mean you have to medicate right now, but if it gets worse they will already be aware you're struggling.

Good luck, mama!

Thank yall so much   I go for my next visit with my OB Thursday And I think im going to bring it up to him!!!

Quoting KBhooper:" Thank yall so much   I go for my next visit with my OB Thursday And I think im going to bring it up to him!!!"

sounds like a good plan. They aren't going to judge you either they know this happens and are prepared to help. My hospital actually sits down with mom and dad on the day of release and go through things to look for when it comes to anxiety and depression. good luck to you mama.

<blockquote><b>Quoting KBhooper:</b>" Ok so please don't judge. I have always had anxiety but been able to control it myself non medicated ... [snip!] ... to suffer from this stupid disease and not be able to enjoy every waking moment of my babys life.!!!!! Anxiety is exhausting  "</blockquote>



I feel the EXACT same way. My midwife suggested that I encapsulate my placenta. It fights ppd, does wonders for your your breast milk supply, and it's all natural. I fired myob bc she was pressuring me to get back on meds after I weened myself off for there health of my baby. Despite what she and the maternal specialist say, I have a perfectly healthy pregnancy. Seroquel free. You can do it momma. If you didn't have some fear of being responsible for another life, there might be something to worry about. Best of luck.

Quoting Sour Daisy:" You have to defer those thoughts when they start up. Try an catch yourself when you're thinking about ... [snip!] ... you are to see your bran new babies little face for the first time   It takes time and practice, but it really helps."

 this. when i was pregnant with my son i experienced the same thing and when it happened i would train myself to think happy or hurry and go do something that i knew would take my brain away from where it was. i would tell myself i was just over thinking and it was my brain playing jokes on me that seemed to help and also going outside or going on a walk(probably hard to do with as far along as you are) or maybe just sitting outside. i hope everything gets easier for you. anxiety is no fun

Thank yall so much it really helps a lot hearing that I'm not the only one with it this bad and there is support out there!!! I will be talkibg to my doc about it tomorrow will update yall thanks mamas