Im so sad.

It all started with happy stuff I found out my fiance' and I were expecting the day after our son's 1st birthday, we wernt very excited at first but it grew on us. Due to the baby being a huge surprise. I think I was more excited than him at first. He said this would be our last one... and I kinda wanted to get a few things done before another baby, Buy a house, get a full time job and get married. But we were going to work it all out. we didn't tell our parents. I told my boss because she looked at me funny for asking for so much time off for apts. and a trusted co worker. He told his counciler ( hes a recovering alcholic) Things were going to be hard but it would be worth it. Wends 9/9/12 I started bleeding. I was alarmed but I called the nurse at the dr. office and she said that it is common to bleed during pregnancy, I was a tad bit relieved and was told i I was cramping or bleeding really heavy I needed to be seen asap. Thursday 10/11/12 we went to the emergency room, I just knew something was wrong, overnight I had begun to cramp and bleed heavily. I went to give a urine sample and I couldnt pee, I heard a pop and a plop in the toilet and instantly stood up. I looked at it and it was huge, so shaking I put on a glove and grabed it out of the toilet, It was the size of the palm of my hand and looked like a round ball, or a sack clot idk, I looked hard and it did't look promising. I knew right then in my heart we had lost the baby. I was hystericle(sp) crying and finally calmed down enough to have an ultrasound, they saw nothing) and said it might be to early for the baby. I still had a wee bit of hope. Last night I came home and felt fine a bit crampy but nothing to extreame until I put my son to bed and sat down. the cramps were so bad I couldn't breath. I went to the er again. I drove myself and my son and my fiance' met us there. a friend came and picked up our son and we went back to a room. they drew blood, had to pee in a cup and they gave me meds for the pain. then they came and did a pap and helped pull some clots out, I was okay until after the dr told me about my levels, on thursday I was at a 800 and I was at a 78 confirming that I had lost the baby. The dr told me based on that information I had probably lost the baby in that clot I saw. 10/11/12 RIP little baby. I will always love you even though I didn't get to meet you, You will always be in my heart.

as of right now my dad won't talk to me and my mom told me I was stupid for even getting pregnant... im hurt and sad... I know it will take time but I really don't know what to do or think right now.

Im so sorry your parents are treating you that way after your loss that is really smurfed of them! My prayers are with your tiny little baby and your family. Hopefully in the future you will have a healthy pregnancy and child, just think right now it wasnt the right time, and baby is somewhere beautiful (if you believe in God sometimes this helps). Have a good day momma and again im so so sorry.

<blockquote><b>Quoting Leland makes Three =]:</b>" It all started with happy stuff I found out my fiance' and I were expecting the day after our son's 1st ... [snip!] ... even getting pregnant... im hurt and sad... I know it will take time but I really don't know what to do or think right now. "</blockquote>



I'm sorry for your loss firstly and secondly ppl need to support you in this time.
It'll be hard right now, but with time it will be easier. I've lost 2 babies. and your story is similar to my first. Need to talk vent, questions. Pm me.

Thank you ladies... it is hard, but I know our little one is in a better place, my fiance' s family just lost a close friend of theirs and I told him, our little one with with "coop" now... he will take good care of our our little baby. I remember saying that in the ER just after we found out. I am a mess and I know time will heal everything. I wish I had more support but right now I am leaning on my friends and my SO and my little boys hugs and kisses help with the sadness..

I am so sorry for your loss. Going through that is hard enough with out having negative people around you. Things will get better. Surround yourself with people that will be there for you and be there when you need it. If you need to talk or anything you can PM me as well. Stay strong!