Monday, 5-19, my due date might I add, Rylan decided to rupture my membranes, but also decided that she did not want to come out! My water broke around 4:30pm. I got to the hospital around 7 ish. Even though it was obvious that my water broke, I had to sit around for quite some time until I could be checked...
I was not happy with the beginning of my stay what-so-ever... I was so scared of ending up with a c-section, since I wasn't really contrating, that for the first time my entire pregnancy, I had high blood pressure.. They let me go without inducing with pitocin for about 12 hours, but then said I needed pitocin, because baby had to be born before another 12 hrs was up. Started pitocin around 5 am-ish. I was devastated because going pain med free was very important to me.. And I knew pitocin could be the start of many many interventions.. It also meant continuous monitoring and being chained to a constricted area..
Around 7 am the current shift and on-call MW went off call! And the new shift came on, and my fav midwife was now on call!! I was excited. From that point on, I became much more relaxed. I sat on the birth ball, stood, squatted, all the things I could still do while being attached to the IV and the continuous monitoring. I went fairly quickly from there. Since my membranes ruptured, the MWs decided not to check me until I felt I needed to be checked.
Well the contractions started to get very very bad, I was having a very hard time breathing through them and was starting to cry and scream a tiny bit through them... The MW decided it was time to check me. I had been avoiding it thus far, afraid I would not be very far and get discouraged.. Pitocin was started around 5 am and it was only about 5 hours later. She checked me and I was a 7, and it hurt soo badly to be checked. I figured it would be another few hours, but I tried to refuse to let pain meds enter my mind, but the contractions were excruciating.
I told the MW that I felt like I needed to go to the bathroom. I knew this was a sign of needing to push, but none of us thought that was a possibility. So I fought my body trying to push on its own for a little while, but I didn't quite realize that that was what it was... After about 10-15 minutes of that, I couldn't hold back anymore, but it hurt so bad even if I tried to work with it and I couldn't stand it.
I ended up pushing her out in ten minutes, although I have no idea how.. I was screaming my head off because I hurt so bad, there were tons of nurses in there as well as my MW and the back up doctor. I was so out of it while pushing that I didn't quite realize that her heart rate was dropping very low with each contraction. They kept yelling at me to push. I saw them get the scissors and say they might need the vaccum. I begged the MW not to cut me. She said I needed to push the baby out now or she had no choice, I would get cut and they would use the vaccum. So I pushed as hard as I possibly could, although I still don't know how, I had been half pushing half fighting them to this point, and out she came. They wisked her away and I didn't get to see of hold her for 15 minutes...
Her cord was wrapped around her neck twice and around her shoulders. I kept asking to hold her, and eventually the MW said it was okay to hold her now, but they still didn't bring here over.
I wish they would have, as I ended up with a second degree tear and could have really used holding my daughter as a distraction. Somehow I made it through delivering the placenta and getting stiched up, but I was thoroughly traumatized at that point, lol.
I screamed soo loud during pushing that I'm sure the whole ward heard me..
Ah well. I made it through and was up and walking, etc. within an hour. The nurses all got a kick out of how when they said I could get up and pee, in order to get the iv removed, I practically jumped out of bed.. Lol.
Rylan was having trouble nursing at first, due to a few issues, but she's getting the hang of it, and will very soon be nursing like a champ!
So, stats!
Rylan Elaina
6 lbs 9 oz
19 1/2 inches
Born 10:35 am May 20th 2008
