Phoenix Draven

Every year I think this time of year will get easier. that the day will come and go and I won't think about you. Or at least won't feel guilty or cry about you. The day i found out you were coming I was terrified. I didn't know how to feel. I just remember knowing that I wasn't ready. And that feeling has haunted me for eleven years.

I know it wasn't meant to be. that you were born sleeping for a reason. That you were going to be an angel over your sisters and I. And everyday i think about the life you should of had. How you would be turning into my little man now. Annoying your sister and making sure she knew who was boss. I still mourn your life but in a small way you are always here. Fallon and i talk about you often and she always says you are here. Which make me happy she knows about you.

We love you Phoenix. You will never be forgotten no matter how many years pass. I hope you had a Happy Birthday My love.

I'm so sorry for your loss!!

Happy Birthday Angel Baby!

I love his name by the way. I had an angel baby June 23, 2008 his name is Jaunte Genesis, I don't talk about him much but I know he's looking over us.

Quoting Mann Makin' Mama[BBM]:" I'm so sorry for your loss!! Happy Birthday Angel Baby! I love his name by the way. I had an angel ... [snip!] ... way. I had an angel baby June 23, 2008 his name is Jaunte Genesis, I don't talk about him much but I know he's looking over us."

I know many people don't know about Phoenix but he was a part of my life. A lot of people didn't even know i was pregnant. Sometimes its hard to be quiet about it though.

Love the name btw  

<blockquote><b>Quoting Fallon and Scout's Momma:</b>" I know many people don't know about Phoenix but he was a part of my life. A lot of people didn't even know i was pregnant. Sometimes its hard to be quiet about it though. Love the name btw  "</blockquote>




No one knew about Jaunte either. I was very young so I kept quiet about it, just his dad knew and now some of the gaga ladies and close friends.

Draven was actually a name I wanted to name my youngest.