This isn't really a debate, but rather a discussion.
I was reading this, and judging by the overwhelming responses to this, I figured it would make good conversation. My post isn't exactly derived from her blog, but it got me thinking about my own motherhood.
Truth be told, I am an excellent provider. I have been a single mother for years, and have truly mastered the art of providing for my children. I own my systems, and run a tight ship 'round these parts. It's something I am truly proud of.
Now here's the ugly: I don't thoroughly enjoy being a mother. I don't hate it, nor do I see my little boogers as a burden, but I don't have those mushy, gushy, 'mom' feelings most women expect to be instilled in them. In fact sometimes I feel *gasp* jipped in that sense.
I have been a mom for 9 years now. This part of motherhood has escaped me. Sometimes, as the author stated, I DO want to get in my car and keep driving after work. Never in a million years would I EVER leave these children. The fact remains however, being a mom doesn't simply thrill me.
It could be a variety of factors. It could be that I have been holding the fort down solo for so many years. It could be the things left undone due to becoming a mom when I was a kid myself. ( One of the BIGGEST reasons teenage pregnancy strikes as a no-no to me). Perhaps it's because my son is on the autism spectrum, and most days our lives take flight on a crazy rocket to an outerspace of chaos and stress. It could simply be that at 9 and 3 years old, these are the gimme gimme years, and it's a lot of 'thankless' work so to speak.( You'll never see me follow that statement with ' but I get paid in kisses' I might add).
That being said, I wanted to have this conversation to see how truly common this is. As I said before, these kids are mine. I owe them the absolute best life possible, and I LOVE
them. But I don't find motherhood as awesome as I believe others perceive their lives to be.
*prepares for stoning*
As always, let's keep it nice.