Moving way tooooo much, then not enough!!

I'm 18, and 22 weeks pregnant with my first baby. He was unplanned, but I love him with every fiber of my being. I don't know what to expect and what not to expect. But my son, Jaxon, he moves a lot. He will be kicking my lower stomach non-stop some days.. But, other days I won't feel him move at all. I don't understand. I feel like I'm doing something wrong when he doesn't move, or I feel like I'm doing something wrong when he moves too much. It's kind of freaking me out. His kicks are still pretty faint, but sometimes they are really hard and I can feel them on the outside of my stomach. I don't know if I should be worrying or if I should just take a chill pill. If someone could let me know, I would appreciate it.

Also, is it normal to be impatient for your due date to get here?

My final question. I used to be confident and okay with the way that I looked.. But, as I keep getting bigger, I just keep feeling uglier and uglier! Not sure why. I love being pregnant, I just feel so gross, and I hate looking at myself in the mirror. I'm getting stretch marks even though I'm using the stretch marks cream. But, I heard sometimes the cream doesn't work. But, I feel like my fiance' isn't attracted to me, because I'm getting so big. He still calls me beautiful and stuff and kisses my stomach and tells me that he is attracted to me. But, when I look at myself in the mirror, I think to myself, "How could anybody be attracted to this? I'm a blimp and I'm not going to go back to normal anytime soon." Any advice to help brighten me up so I'm not so depressed about the way I look?

Thank you.

question 1 normal

question 2 normal

question 3. feel good that you dont look the way i did durring my pregnancies.  

Quoting john casey (mtka):" question 1 normal question 2 normal question 3. feel good that you dont look the way i did durring my pregnancies.  "

I still don't feel 'normal.' I feel, I don't know, blahhh. Like people are looking at me, and thinking, "Damn, this girl is just fat and ugly." That's all that goes through my mind, all day everyday. I hate going out in public.

I think of my stretch marks as a badge of honour think of the end result you are creating a life I have days I feel large and in charge but I'm carrying a product of the love my husband and I shared that blessed us with a precious gift. I was was on a weight loss kick my dr told me I was not allowed to exercise till after as I had lost two babies before. There will be plenty of time to get back in shape afterward

Quoting Kelsey Johnson:" I still don't feel 'normal.' I feel, I don't know, blahhh. Like people are looking at me, and thinking, ... [snip!] ... "Damn, this girl is just fat and ugly." That's all that goes through my mind, all day everyday. I hate going out in public."

dont feel that way. its all in your head. when i was pregnant people couldnt keep thier traps shut. i didnt have to wonder what they were thinking they flat our told me. with the twins i was told any time i left how huge i was and how misserable i looked (thanks guys!) and with my youngest i was always asked if i was having twins... and that i sure looked tired.

dont worry about what any one else thinks. they dont matter

Quoting Mrs cree:" I think of my stretch marks as a badge of honour think of the end result you are creating a life I have ... [snip!] ... not allowed to exercise till after as I had lost two babies before. There will be plenty of time to get back in shape afterward"

I hope that I will be able to get back to my normal size after Jaxon gets here. But, staying 'big' after you have your baby's runs in my family. I don't want to be big. I want to be comfortable with the way I look, and that just isn't happening..

You're only 22weeks so it's still early, at 28 weeks they'll have you start doing kick count, if baby is moving at least a couple of time during the day don't worry.

Yes it's normal to be impatient.

Your body is changing, after all you're carrying a child. Also the stretch mark cream doesn't work, so no matter how much you put if your gonna get them there is nothing you can do.

Everything you're feeling is totally normal mama  

My LO did the same thing sometimes she'd move like crazy other times I'd barely feel her for days, I probably went to the hospital at least 4 times and she was always fine. The doctor said its just that some times they're sleepier than others and sometimes they need more rest because they're growing and developing.

As far as feeling gross I think most of us feel that way about getting so much bigger but just try to remember you are still beautiful and its all worth it  

Quoting john casey (mtka):" dont feel that way. its all in your head. when i was pregnant people couldnt keep thier traps shut. ... [snip!] ... asked if i was having twins... and that i sure looked tired. dont worry about what any one else thinks. they dont matter"

See, I can't handle people saying stuff like that. I'm emotional. Very emotional. People think I'm having twins. But, I'm not. I wasn't big before I got pregnant. When I was 14 weeks, I looked 30 weeks in my sister's eyes. People think I'm further along than what I am. But, I'm not. It also could be that my baby is only suppose to be 1/2 a pound, and he is almost 2 pounds, and that he is suppose to be 7 inches long, and he is over a foot long. He is a pretty big guy!!

Quoting Kelsey Johnson:" See, I can't handle people saying stuff like that. I'm emotional. Very emotional. People think I'm having ... [snip!] ... and he is almost 2 pounds, and that he is suppose to be 7 inches long, and he is over a foot long. He is a pretty big guy!!"

I was really small before I got pregnant, by the time I was 6 months people were constantly telling me how huge I was and that I must be having twins or that the doctor must be wrong about my due date or I was having a huge baby. That was with me still wearing a size 5 in juniors jeans until I was like 7mos so I was still pretty small people are just so stupid/rude. I'd try not to let it get to you people are just kindof ignorant lol

Quoting Rhia Leigh:" I was really small before I got pregnant, by the time I was 6 months people were constantly telling ... [snip!] ... I was still pretty small people are just so stupid/rude. I'd try not to let it get to you people are just kindof ignorant lol"

See, I don't understand why people are like that. Also, my family is just ignorant. Like, my dad, my sisters, my aunt, and my grandma are supportive. Along with my boyfriend and his family.. But, some of my family wants nothing to do with me.. Which makes no sense to me, because it's not like I tried to get pregnant. It was an accident and I'm trying my hardest to do things right. But, everyone just sees it as, Ooh, she's pregnant and she is a piece of crap. Nobody sees it as, Ooh, she's pregnant and she is working her ass off trying to do what's best for her baby. Except for my dad and my sister. They know I'm trying, but everyone else is just being so stupid and stuff. I don't get it.