I'm so over..

My life. Everything... Just.. Yeah..

What's wrong?

What's wrong?

I have an exam on Monday that im stressed about. I can't seem to find time to study while caring for LO.. And when I do have time I'm so tired I read the same sentence in my textbook 5 times and my mind is still like 'WTF'.
Trying to work out money issues.
One of my closest friends Overdosed and passed away..
My boyfriend and mum keep bitching about each other to me(I wrote a post about it somewhere.. Something called 'where's the balance').
I'm sick of having depression... It's effecting everything and making me feel like things are worse then they probably are.
I spend all day home with LO.. I guess I feel like I have no life anymore.. Which Is probably why I'm over life. I should see spending so much time with him a privilege but it just feels unrewarding..
I feel like ive sacrificed my job, friendships, body and Uni for what seems like the most unrewarding thing.. I know it's because he is so little.. But yeah..
I love him.. But I'm tired.. I love my space and alone time.. I miss it.
I miss life and I'm hating my new one..

Quoting elle-marisha:" I have an exam on Monday that im stressed about. I can't seem to find time to study while caring for ... [snip!] ... But yeah.. I love him.. But I'm tired.. I love my space and alone time.. I miss it. I miss life and I'm hating my new one.."

All those thoughts and emotions are normal to feel so soon after giving birth. Pregnancy, giving birth and becoming a mom is life changing thing and it will take time to get use to it all. Don't give up and take some time for you. Maybe ask a family member or good friend to watch LO for a few hours so you can decompress and chill.

I remember that thread you made.

I think you need to relax. Can your SO or Mom take your LO for a few hours so you can study?

I know what it's like to feel as though you gave up everything and yet you're not feeling the reward. It does get more and more rewarding as your child gets older. You won't be getting much of any alone time until your LO is older. My LO is 14 months & I have less alone time now than I did when he was a newborn.
Sometimes you just need to remind yourself that it's not always about you, but about your LO & you're going to have to learn to find your alone time. I find mine when LO naps or if his dad is tending after him (if I am lucky lol).

Hopefully you find things get better over time and they do, they really do.

Thankyou <3 I probably do need some alone time. I just get annoyed at myself for being so depressed all the time. I think I drive myself bonkers!

Quoting elle-marisha:" Thankyou <3 I probably do need some alone time. I just get annoyed at myself for being so depressed all the time. I think I drive myself bonkers!"

Oh believe me I know! I hate how depressed I get, it's annoying for me.

Quoting elle-marisha:" Thankyou <3 I probably do need some alone time. I just get annoyed at myself for being so depressed all the time. I think I drive myself bonkers!"

Hun, I'm so sorry that you are feeling this way. I havent had my LO yet but I already feel slightly depressed about all that I have given up... I cry everyday and am having an awkful time coping... it's to the point that I feel bad for my BD for having to be around such a depressed soul.

Please, if you can, hand the baby to his father or your mother and leave the house. Go grab coffee, or workout, or meet up with friends. Just take an hour or two to yourself. Sanity is everything.

*e-hugs*

I think it's normal to feel all those emotions. This is my third child and I have quite an age difference between them. My oldest is almost 14, the middle one is almost 7 and I have a 5 week old. I was pretty settled into life having older children and it has been an adjustment to having a new baby. Back to no sleep, changing diapers and having a totally dependent little person. Hang in there it will get better!