I lost my 6 day old daughter 2 weeks ago today...she would be 3 weeks tomorrow I just keep thinking about everything I would be doing with her right now...I feel so empty and lost and like my life will never get better. I even had her halloween costume picked out :-( She was so perfect and beautiful and I just can't be happy at all. The only reason I have for living right now is my kids and my husband. We still don't know why she died and its killing me not knowing. I just don't feel like doing anything all I do is think about her. I saw her today for the first time since she passed away, she will be cremated tomorrow. She was so pale and cold. She didn't even look like herself she is black white and indian so she wasnt a pale baby, but she was just all white today when I saw her. I kept staring at her like she was going to wake up or something.....I feel crazy!!!