Breast Feeding and Rx for depression??

I want to breastfeed my ID Twin Boys s I know they are getting what they need. Not to mention their dad (who left me at 10 weeks pregnant) thinks he is gonna get custody and I honestly don't think he can handle new born twins if he can hardly handle his 4 yr old daughter who is potty trained and can tell him what she need without him loosing his temper. He said his anger is getting bad again and I fear for my twins. So my OB said nurse them and I would but I didnt nurse my first born because I was on Prozac and still am (stopped for pregnancy but plan on resuming shortly after) and thats about the only garunteed way to make sure my boys are only with him for visitation purposes rather than full weekends or whatever till they are a bit older. But I asked the high risk OB today what I can and can not do and she pulled out this huge book about drugs during pregnancy and lactation and it says that there is nothing known about long term side affects for this drug but they had to post on their label not to be used by nursing women. So she asked if I would try around and I said no. I am with the idea that I know what works for me and trial and erroring it right after giving birth is not going to be effective in me finding something that works to help with my depression. So she said the only choices are either start taking it and formula feed or dont take it and breast feed the choice is yours.. So my question is what would you do in my situation?? Knowing BD is trying to do everything in his power to make your life a living hell and wont even respond on a suggestion for custody because he wants some type of physical custody because he wants to be able to claim them on taxes every other year (which again I dont feel is fair when they will be living with me most of the time except weekends anyway). So some ideas on what you would do would be great. I know the decision is mine and mine alone but I am looking for input so I can make a better decision.

Wellbutrin is the first thing that comes to mind during pregnancy and breastfeeding.

Quoting Chroma Hex [+1]:" Wellbutrin is the first thing that comes to mind during pregnancy and breastfeeding. "

Doesnt work for me I was on effexor and welbutrin at the same time and they were both the highest doses you could get and they didnt work for me. And I dont want to trial and error with other meds because I know what works for me and it has been for over 4 yrs. And I dont think right after having a couple of babies is the best time for trial and error to find something that is safe for the boys but works for me. Not when I have to deal with a 4 yr old and them at the same time. I know how drugs can affect certain people certain ways and I sure as heck dont want to be taking anything out vocally at my son when it isnt his fault. Thats why I asked what people would do go back on the meds and just botttle feed and hope like hell the paper trail you are providing against BD is enough for him to just have visitation and nothing more or dont go back on it and garuntee he doesnt get anything but visitation because you are nursing.

I would say drop meds til done nursing im bipolar ocd and have few other issues and for the simple fact I dont trust my husband I dont take meds period and as for him try texting facebooking and everything else possible to show he cant even handle his other child let alone two infants

Quoting Leannah Carrasco:" I would say drop meds til done nursing im bipolar ocd and have few other issues and for the simple fact ... [snip!] ... for him try texting facebooking and everything else possible to show he cant even handle his other child let alone two infants"

Thanks. I think I have enough in the messages I have here on FB to go with showing he is not of sound mind. I am also going to tell them to look up his medical records because he claims he is Bipolar and all this other crap he is a recovering alcoholic ( I know your probably asking why I got pregnant with such a looser. Honest answer I thought I loved him) and he blew up at me online because I told him custody isnt going to be settled until the courts decide and until then I have full custody sperm entitles you to nothing. And he called me a bitter bitch because I told him I dont think I want him there the days the twins are born because it is by c-section and I dont want his drama. SO he said I am a bitter bitch and keeping him from his kids (because I told him show up all you want but you wont be allowed in the room until I say so) because I am still hung up on him and want him back. I could care less. I also have a friend or 2 on his FB that told me about a message he posted asking for help to get things for the twins (when he has a job and wont save his own money to buy things for them) and one of those friends is gonna print it off for me to show he is being irresponsible and waiting till there was 7 weeks (at the time) before they arrive to start getting things. He smokes 2 packs of cigs a day and has no money to do anything and is living at home with mommy. Mind you I have state assitance right now and will be looking for work when they are 8 weeks old but I live on my own and have been taking care of my 4 yr old by myself for 3 yrs and he is still alive healthy and doing just fine. I plan on getting a different trailor (extra bedroom) with taxes but other than that. Bills are paid food is on the table and clothes on his back. And he wants to hold me taking one little pill over my head because it helps me to cope with my depression when he has more severe problems than my depression going on. Even his mom agrees he wont get custody but evidently he can pay to talk to his lawyer on a regular basis but he cant afford to buy his kids the basics for when they go to visit??? Cause I know for a fact you cant talk to lawyers for advice without it costing somehting. He also has another gf that he doesnt want to admit to but has been seen with numerous times in public holding her hand and kissing on her and stuff. And I wont have him introducing my children to 14 plus women in the span of 2 yrs because he cant make up his mind and make a cimmitment. He did that to his daughter 14 women in 2 yrs before he met me and then left me after getting me pregnant because it was "me" and not the twins as to why he left. Because he wasnt happy. He also lies out his ass and sets things in stone that arent set in stone. He had to go in for a colonoscopy because they were trying to figure out why he had the runs and blood in his stool and he texts me on FB telling me how would you feel if you found out you were dieing. I was like WTF and he said yea the Drs dont hold much hope they think its worse than this type of cancer and I may not have long to live. His mom took him to the appointment and asked the Drs herself after the procedure was done and all he has is IBS and is lactose intolerant but has to drink 2 gallons of milk a week and eat cheese on everything. But the Drs said they were going to check for cancers and he put it as he has cancer and is sieing. I dont want my boys growing up thinking that is ok. He also is "sick" for one reaosn or another all the time. But yea this is long enough but you get the general idea he isnt fit to have custody of kids lt alone his 4 yr old daughter or 2 infants. His mom even agrees he isnt fit to care for them on a weekend basis because he wouldnt know what to do.

It sounds like he is just doing this to scare you try to stay off meds for a while to bf if you can but keep proof of his anger for the sake of you and your babies good luck and take care

Yeah that sounds like my husband! Crazy and cant deal with even a sleeping child.... My husband has 5 other kids I know about and 3 with me he only tries to care for me and none of his 8 which repulses me so I know how it is to have a loser suck you in and just keep track I have 5 yrs of harrassement from him just in case I need it .... But your doing good.... Good luck.

Quoting Mrs cree:" It sounds like he is just doing this to scare you try to stay off meds for a while to bf if you can but keep proof of his anger for the sake of you and your babies good luck and take care"

Thanks. I know its probably just scare tactics but still the mention of lawyers always creeps me out.

Quoting Leannah Carrasco:" Yeah that sounds like my husband! Crazy and cant deal with even a sleeping child.... My husband has 5 ... [snip!] ... you in and just keep track I have 5 yrs of harrassement from him just in case I need it .... But your doing good.... Good luck."

I am sry you have to deal with that. And I am keeping track of what he says and I am gonna print it all off when it comes time for court. Wish you luck in your life.