So TTC again has been on my mind a lot lately. Next April will mark 4 years since Caydence passed away and it has been almost 2 years since my miscarriage and with all the crazy smurf going on with everyone's kids in our family Ive had baby on the brain big time. So yesterday I decided to talk to SO about trying again. So I told him I wanted to talk to him and he said ok well come into the bathroom with me and I did. Here is how our convo went:
me: So Ive been thinking its time to add another little monster to our house.
SO: (sarcastically) So you want to get another dog?
SO: So then what are you talking about?
me: I think its time that we tried to have another lil monster.
SO: Oh well Justin(his youngest kid) is coming down for xmas then we will have two lil monsters in the house.
me: No Im talking about another little monster of our own thats ours.
SO: LOL Ive been trying! What do you think Ive been putting in work for the last few nights for.
I laughed my ass of at this point but now Im happy we are both on the same page and we both want the same thing. I know things have been crazy right now and a lot of it is because of his son but honestly we have never once even had a disagreement while I was pregnant and he is so sweet and attentive. Hopefully this time is just like the last time I got it in my head to have another baby and I get pregnant the first month we try. On a sad note though if I do get pregnant this month my due date will be around the same time my due date was with Caydence(something I didnt realize til today) I dont know if I will be able to handle that constant reminder but we shall see when we come to that bridge.