I can't stop thinking...s

I can't stop thinking about how far along I should be. I should be going on 21 weeks. I always feel like it isn't fair. I'm going on 3 cycles and still no rainbow baby. I lost my angel baby in July. It technically wasn't really a loss since it was a blighted ovum but it still hurts. I could start testing in a few day since I am going on the third cycle almost but I don't feel the pregnancy signs. I don't have nothing. I am not even having my periods come at the same time anymore; nothing seems like it is the same anymore. I'm tired of change. I'm not even part of the TTC group anymore b/c it seems like as soon as you go in there then BAM you get pregnant within the month. I took a bg break for like a week but since I don't really have any friends I feel lonely and came back. Even the friends that I do have that have kids minus one in particular hasn't gone through a loss like I have. It's hard to talk to them about it when they themselves haven't gone through one. Who knew that actively trying or not trying not preventing would prevent you from conceiving so fast. Ugh end vent

I'm sorry for your loss. I also had a m/c in July (would have been due the end of Feb). We tried to stay positive about things

I'm sorry   I hope you get a BFP soon!

Quoting bazinga!:" I'm sorry for your loss. I also had a m/c in July (would have been due the end of Feb). We tried to stay positive about things"

((hugs)) The most recent thing I've been through was last Friday when I was at work, this girl that stopped working when I was pregnant, came in and was like "OMG! You don't even look pregnant!" I'm like " wow, that's because I'm not..." She knew I was due at the end of February, like how can you not tell? Even if she didn't know the date and knew I didn't look pregnant, why couldn't she just ask someone else? Ugh /sigh

*hug* I had a chemical in July... although it wasn't a "real" pregnancy, it's still hurts badly. And it hurts to see girls come in not trying hard, then complaining about how much waiting sucks... then getting pregnant right away. Not that I wish infertility on anyone, but it not fun.  

I must say though, I felt NOTHING when I was pregnant with my daughter. I really thought I was out when I took those tests and was sooo surprised to get a plus. The months I swore I was pregnant I wasn't... so you never know, this could be your rainbow baby month. *hug*

Quoting Mðmmå Çhï¢lꆆê~ 3dpo:" *hug* I had a chemical in July... although it wasn't a "real" pregnancy, it's still hurts badly. And ... [snip!] ... to get a plus. The months I swore I was pregnant I wasn't... so you never know, this could be your rainbow baby month. *hug*"

you're really sweet you know that? Lots of hugs from me to you!  

Aw thanks. But you deserve it so...  

Hugs!

No, it's not fair. I should be 39 weeks pregnant right now, but I'm not. Former due date buddies of mine are going to start popping out kids and I just get to sit back and think, "it should be me". I'm getting sick and tired of having to pass by due dates without a baby to show for it. I hope you get your BFP soon, and I hope to God you get a rainbow baby!

It is hard not to think about. You will always think about how far along you would be. Then it will be how old your baby will be. It sucks. It doesn't seem to get easier either.

Hugs.

It will get easier and less painful with time but I don't think it ever truly leaves you. I'm so sorry. Not just something that you can 'get over' and unless you've experienced it, you just don't understand the grief.

I am so sorry for your loss. I had a m/c last month and it is hard. I am forever thinking about how far along I would be and how my body would be changing. My best friend and sister are both pregnant and I can't help but feel jealous. I hope you get that BFP and that things get easier as we all know the hurt will not go away. -hugs- hang in there mama