Abuse, Drugs, and Abortion

I was in High School when I met Cole. He was charming and great. We dated for a year and a week before I graduated high school ( he graduated early) he proposed to me... I said yes... and that night had sex for the first time... In the following July he asked me to go with him to Chicago and being a small town, southern girl I said yes very excitedly. Things were wonderful I enjoyed every minute of being with him. We both got jobs and was living life as a carefree couple. Soon he started hanging out with people I really didnt care for. He started losing weight but I didnt think anything about it. one night he came home late and just blew up, swinging his arms around he hit me in the face... apoligized and we moved on. about a month later I found out I was pregnant. When I told Cole he blew up and punched me, This time on purpose. He demanded I get an abortion. He said if I didnt Id be on the streets of chicago with no money... I was scared out of my mind. I went to the abortion clinic he chose and they did a sonogram... I saw this little thing inside of me and I was crushed. They gave me two pills and sent me away... After the abortion he started hitting me because I got the abortion... It was a lose lose situation... I soon found out he was doing cocaine and I couldnt take anymore of his abuse. He had caused so much pain already I couldnt handle it. Everyday I thing of the young child I gave up because of the abusive situatuation I was in. Everyday I hurt... I have to see this as the best for that child because I dont think bringing a child into that kind of situation would have been healthy.

I hope desperately you're out of that situation now, honey...I'm so sorry to read all of this. =[

I wouldn't have wanted to bring a child into this world with a father like that. I'm not saying you did the right thing, but I don't know if I could have kept the pregnancy with that in my life. I'm so sorry. <3

Oh my i'm so sorry honey, good for you to realize you deserved better! You did the best you could in the smurffy situation you were dealt.

I cant even say how sorry I am that you had to go through that   Im so sorry he forced you. My heart really is with you!

I'm really sorry about that..
You did the best you could.

I'm so sorry that you had to go through that, sweetheart. I hope that you're in a better situation now, and that you never have to go through that again. You did the best you could, and I hope that you're able to recover. *hugs*

I got out of that relationship.... Thank goodness before I actually married him.... It took a few years to recover from the whole ordeal... Now I am married to a lovely man with two kids and one due in a couple weeks... But to be honest I have never shared my story and it really felt good!  

Quoting Waddlebug:" I got out of that relationship.... Thank goodness before I actually married him.... It took a few years ... [snip!] ... man with two kids and one due in a couple weeks... But to be honest I have never shared my story and it really felt good!   "

I am so glad you're doing better! I'm also glad sharing your story helped you!