Quoting Mum-of-2:" <blockquote><b>Quoting JohnSilverSmith:</b>" I've been on the receiving end of this ... [snip!] ... men. Though I've never said someone else's name. I'd never admit this him because it would hurt him but I feel pretty terrible."
Yeah, I thought it was erectile dysfunction at first. But in reality, I thought about what the reason was for losing it and lo and behold it was the same thing each time. It hasn't happened like a thousand times, BUT it has happened a few dozen times over the years. Nothing will make me lose an erection faster than thinking about my wife getting railed by another dude. Just knowing how much she likes sex, it makes me ill to think of her being that way with someone other than me. The whole intimate carnal knowledge thing is something that I know that I'll never get over in my life.
Some of the few people who know my private business tell me that it is not a big deal and that it is normal for people to have sex with other people before they get married. This just makes it worse because what they are telling me is that I'm not normal because I don't like to think of my wife having sex with other men. I guess I'm not normal for feeling the way that I do, but I was raised a certain way and I actually BELIEVE in how I was raised. My sister is the same way. Only her husband has the same belief system and they "waited" for each other.
I thought that at some point that I could put this behind me, but in reality I never will. She has said that losing your virginity is not that good and this that and the other. BUT, she remembers her first time having sex with Bill but not her first time with me. She uses the excuse that she thought that I wasn't a virgin either. It bothers me that sex isn't as big a deal for her as it is for me. I've never shared that part of me with anyone but her because I never wanted to share sex with anyone other than my wife. Now that we've been through some things(see my other posts), I know that she completely trivializes her sex life but not mine. She is OBSESSED with me not being with anyone else, but I can't talk about her WITH her without her tripping offline on me. She doesn't want our business out there for everyone to know, but went around bragging that she took my virginity. It's a matter of what is good for the goose SHOULD be good for the gander, but she is EXTREMELY hypocritical that way.