Quoting ♥AlwaysJojo J.M.M:" <blockquote><b>Quoting Nikkie Beee:</b>" Eff that! You didn't do crap wrong! He's just ... [snip!] ... how do I get over him he is my first and only love only guy I've been with sexually. Does it get better does the hurt go away?"
Eventually. I'd be lying if I said it's to move on. But, you have to think of yourself and your self worth. I've been cheated on a few times, every time hurt worse and worse. My son's father cheated on me our entire relationship. I forgave him, I forgave him again and I forgave him some more. I caught him so many times, but I thought I really loved him so I put up with it. It NEVER stopped. I finally got tired of being his second option. I finally realized my self worth. I thought I was gonna die from all the pain of being apart from him. But then I met my SO who picked up all the pieces. Then I realized I was SO much better without him. I've never been happier...
Moral of my story is, once a cheater always a cheater. One way or another. There is someone out there for you. Even though you want it to be him, he doesn't want it to be you, otherwise he wouldn't have cheated. You deserve to be happy with someone who loves you and it satisfied with YOU!
NONE of this is your fault.