Quoting K. P. Walsh:" Oh man, I felt the exact same way. I wasn't at ease until about the third week, I'd say. I also obsessed ... [snip!] ... to think, but I did. It's the hormones. I feel like they were crazier after baby than they were the first trimester. "
You just explained me with 100% accuracy. Holy crap. She rolls on her side occasionally to sleep and I start to freakin' hyperventilate. I'm scared she will roll onto her face. I know she has to bond with family and she does. I let my mom and whoever else wants to hold her do so. I just feel guilty like its my job to do those things. I know its irrational feelings. I have no one to express these feelings to at all cause they wont understand or think i'm crazy.
I also feel kind of distant from my fiance but I know that again, it's just all in my mind cause he adores her and helps so much with her. I don't wanna push him away. I agree that the hormones are worse after. I have NOOO appetite. I know its the stress. I was 140 last thursday when i delivered and today a week later I'm at 122 and feel so skinny. Like gross. No energy.
Bahhh. Sorry for the rant.