Overwhelmed....

I don't know what I'm looking for just writing this all out because I'm tired, and frankly overwhelmed right now.

We started a business almost a year ago. DH BIL runs it, but we're the money behind it (DH is an attorney and won a large case that provided start up funds). It's not consistent. We're struggling to keep that business up. If it fails, there's a chance we lose our house. It's a terrifying thought.
I lost my grandma less than a month ago. DH lost his grandma 3 weeks ago.
This morning we lost a great family friend whom my kids considered like a grandpa to them. He lost a very short battle with cancer.

I also in the last month stopped breastfeeding and stopped birth control.
I'm tired. I'm emotionally drained right now. I don't want to do anything around the house. No worries, kids are clean and fed and all that jazz.
I'm just exhausted and feel like I need an escape from reality for a while.

There is just so much stress right now that I would love to sleep until it all goes away.
Think it's just a bit much on top of hormones needing to be sorted out?
IDK......

Blah. Just so much in such a short time and I'm absolutely over it.

sounds to me like you need a girls night, or something along the lines of a mini vacation. I am so sorry to hear about all the close losses. Losing a loved one on top of money stress is horrible. Try to relax, and take at least 30 mins a day to yourself even if its just to take a relaxing bubble bath.

could u be pregnant?

Quoting Humminbirdmoore:" sounds to me like you need a girls night, or something along the lines of a mini vacation. I am so sorry ... [snip!] ... stress is horrible. Try to relax, and take at least 30 mins a day to yourself even if its just to take a relaxing bubble bath. "

Thanks.
I hate baths  
I am leaving for a short get away next weekend. It's an overnight thing with my Mary Kay group. I'm really looking forward to it. I love my children, I just need a break from reality for a bit.

Quoting mutemath27:" could u be pregnant?"

Possible but I'm only 7dpo today and this stuff has been going on longer than that.
It was a rough summer with drama from dh's ex-wife and some other stress there too. It's just been one thing after another lately.

Quoting ~Manda Panda +3 ~:" Thanks. I hate baths   I am leaving for a short get away next weekend. It's an overnight thing ... [snip!] ... thing with my Mary Kay group. I'm really looking forward to it. I love my children, I just need a break from reality for a bit."

i hate them too, thats good that you have a small get away planned, even if it is just for Mary Kay   anything helps. I would also talk to my doctor, maybe there are a=some anti anxiety pills or depression pills they can give you that can give you that little push during the day.

Quoting Humminbirdmoore:" i hate them too, thats good that you have a small get away planned, even if it is just for Mary Kay ... [snip!] ... there are a=some anti anxiety pills or depression pills they can give you that can give you that little push during the day. "

That will be a last resort for me.
I watched my mom get suicidal on depression meds. It's a terrifying memory.

But yes, hopefully this weekend coming up will help.

understand, but that also is due to bad antidepressents, certain ones work for you while others dont, i personally use Zoloft, I have S.A.D which is seasonal depression, i am from San Diego, and now i live in rainy WA. lol and i HATE rain and cold weather.

but yea they can cause those thoughts just have to know that getting into it, and if they make you feel worse then you immediately stop taking them and tell doctor  

Hope things work out and get better soon!

Quoting Humminbirdmoore:" understand, but that also is due to bad antidepressents, certain ones work for you while others dont, ... [snip!] ... if they make you feel worse then you immediately stop taking them and tell doctor   Hope things work out and get better soon!"

Ya, it's just not something I want to risk yet, just in case y'know? Like maybe if I get a run of no bad news. IDK

But thanks for the chat  

Quoting ~Manda Panda +3 ~:" Ya, it's just not something I want to risk yet, just in case y'know? Like maybe if I get a run of no bad news. IDK But thanks for the chat  "

of course! sometimes you just need to vent and this is the perfect place to do it at!  

Quoting Humminbirdmoore:" of course! sometimes you just need to vent and this is the perfect place to do it at!  "

Yep! I do better writing things down. I don't say them out loud enough, so it's a good outlet for me.

Quoting ~Manda Panda +3 ~:" Yep! I do better writing things down. I don't say them out loud enough, so it's a good outlet for me."

I am the exact same way!  

Quoting Humminbirdmoore:" I am the exact same way!  "

Not exactly the best way to go about it I know. But as long as I can "talk" somehow it does help.

Try to get that break, I had a hard summer too my sis is going through a nasty divorce and she came to live with us with her 3 kids and she was pregnant. She didn't have any money she was a stay at home mom. Her hubby cheated on her with their sons kindergarten teacher :0 Crazy part was I figured it out before she did and I had to break the news. It was a disaster and it made finding out I was pregnant feel all the harder. I hope you get that break and steal a little time for yourself. I try to go out with Hubby when I need a break even if it's a fast food meal because money is tight. Whatever makes you relax try to find your peace. Things will get better.