Quoting P3RvYmCp3rv:" I don't have control over my life and never have. Maybe if I wasn't raped at 10, molested at 12, raped ... [snip!] ... control the fact that I'll never have a penny and that most likely I'll be homeless in 2 months. none of that matters though. "
Quoting P3RvYmCp3rv:" and I can't use a rubber band. They contain latex "
Quoting Jax.:" I'm allergic to latex, It added to the pain for me. "
Quoting boobook:" <blockquote><b>Quoting P3RvYmCp3rv:</b>" 4 years of therapy did nothing for me so ... [snip!] ... it long hand. Whatever you are feeling. If you're not a writer, draw, paint... Go for a walk. Talk to us. Have a conversation."a walk would be great or a 30 minute sleep period without getting woken up would be great.
Quoting boobook:" <blockquote><b>Quoting P3RvYmCp3rv:</b>" a walk would be great or a 30 minute sleep period without getting woken up would be great. "</blockquote> Can you do either?"nope...no babysitter...and there is no way I'm dragging the kids out at midnight.
Quoting boobook:" <blockquote><b>Quoting P3RvYmCp3rv:</b>" nope...no babysitter...and there is no way I'm dragging the kids out at midnight. "</blockquote> Go to bed? And get some sleep?"I wish. Wide awake 2 yr old plus have company coming over tomorrow so yea I gotta finish my house. One of my friend's is coming over to tiddy up while I'm at work but ehhh I'm doing laundry and such too so yea. I'll be up for a while.
Quoting P3RvYmCp3rv:" Honestly...not sure. Its just always been there when all else fails. And its like it is my dirty little ... [snip!] ... I do it because I want to die...I want to know I'm still alive and that I'm not dreaming and it just makes me feel the above. "
Quoting Fat-and-Happy:" I know. I used to cut. I haven't in... wow... a long time... 8, 9, 10 years? I know you don't want ... [snip!] ... know that you are real. Does that sound accurate? Do you know what it is about life that makes you feel disassociated from it?"
Quoting Fat-and-Happy:" <blockquote><b>Quoting P3RvYmCp3rv:</b>" Sounds right on and I don't know honestly. ... [snip!] ... hand in a bucket of ice water? Some people also eat really hot peppers or snap themselves with a rubber band as an alternative."yeap...sucky thing about loosing feeling in your hands ice doesn't work. I can't tell you how many times I've set my hand on a hot burner only to have burns because I couldn't feel it. rubber bands have latex so that is a no. Hot peppers I would probably love lol. I'm bored of the jalopeanos and they don't fix my craving.