Lost....

So here we go. Im not forsure if Im yet pregnant or not but as a mother of two already i can sense they my body is changing....& it scares the hell out of me,

Im 20yrs old with two beautiful boys Ka'shawn (almost) 3yrs old & Ka'den 1yrs old. Both of my boys have the same father but because of his actions Im forced to be a single parent.

I work, go to school, & take full care of my boys like a mother should. but we all make mistakes right? Recently I met this REALLY sweet guy (We'll call him "young") Young is soooooo different from any other man I have ever met or been with so after a long time of getting to know him and make sure he's the kind of man I want in my life aswell as my boys, we made that first commitment, & had sex. We made sure we used a condom because for the past 7/8 months I have been celibant so I haven't been on birth control. unfortunately the condom broke but we stopped immediately because neither one of us wants more children right now (he has 3) On the 1st I got the depo shot & they took a pregnancy test and it came up negative but it may have been to early to tell.

I know that if I do end up being pregnant that having an abortion would be the best decision for me and my boys but I can't help but to feel tons of guilt because if I am pregnant my unborn child didn't ask for this & doesn't deserve it. but I don't want to bring another child in this world knowing that I won't be able to give him/her all the attention he/she needs or provide for him/her the way I should. Plus I wan't to be married before I bring another child into this corrupt world.

Idk I just feel lost & hope Im just jumping the gun a bit. Abortion has never been a choice of mine but I think it may be sometime soon =(

I'm sorry hun. I hope you aren't pregnant, your body could feel like it's changing from the depo shot, especially if it's your first one, you know? Just try and stay calm and as stress free as you can so you don't upset the kids you have at home with ya.

Weigh all your options, and decide what's best for you and your family.
Good luck, Mama.

Ugh ... hope everything works out for you. Sucks you have to worry about this bc you were taking care of yourself by using protection! Good luck.

I'm going to say wait it out and see what happens, when I first started depo years ago (I was like 16) I SWORE I was pregnant, I gained weight, I had food cravings, I had all kinds of whacky stuff going on. I decided after about a year I'd had enough, the symptoms wouldn't let up! (and on top of that I had no periods ... ever) But what I'm really saying to you is, wait it out, if you end up pregnant, you should go with your heart and do what's best for the kids you already have, you and your possible unborn child! You don't want to stretch yourself too thin!

Thanks ladies. I hope it is just my depo making my body go out of whack. I'll be taking a pregnancy test in the next upcoming days. So I'll keep you ladies up to date.

****Fingers crossed for a BFN****