Losing my way - weight loss

About 6 months ago I had lost 60 lbs, and had been at my lowest weight in years. I only made it to 194, but that was progress. The problem was it felt like I had to work so hard to get there. Well long story short, I have basically messed all that up and I feel like all that progress was for nothing. I slowly started gaining weight and slowly found myself a few lbs heavier. Next thing you know I've put on about 12 lbs or so, and I definitely look and feel fatter. In the entire time I lost that 60 lbs, I don't recall a time like this where it was THIS hard to get back on the wagon. I had been using my fitness pal and working out a lot. Now I feel like the drive to work out that hard is gone, and I didn't feel like myfitnesspal was something long term I would maintain. Now here I am, having a pitty party, wondering where I went wrong and how to get back to working hard for myself. It's like I can't convince my whole self I need to commit. I wake up and try to work out and start the day health, and by the evening, it's usually the same routine. I blow it. I still work out quite a bit, but my weight has gone up because the amount of food I eat has gone. I honestly feel like I've lost so much control and I'm not sure where or how to start again. I always feel hungry, but I drink a lot of water and try to keep myself busy. I don't know how to get back to where I was... or to keep going at all. Any advice or tips, or jump start ideas would be appreciated.

Don't be hard on yourself. Weight loss is a process & 60lbs is a lot to lose. Maybe try switching your excercise routine. I actually like the myfitnesspal & receive a lot of encouragement. If you like to you can add me mistywalls82

Quoting Misty Walls:" Don't be hard on yourself. Weight loss is a process & 60lbs is a lot to lose. Maybe try switching your ... [snip!] ... routine. I actually like the myfitnesspal & receive a lot of encouragement. If you like to you can add me mistywalls82"

Thanks. Sorry I had to post and leave for work so that's why it took so long to get back to you. I try not to be hard on me but I'm at a point where I think I do need to be harder on me.