Goodnight Grandpa.

I have gone the whole day in a funk. Everything I did went to crap and I think it's because of the day. I miss you so much. I will never forget when I got the call that you had gone. I will never forget how my heart stopped as Stephen bawled into the phone trying to get the words out about what had happened. But somehow I knew.
It was unreal. I knew you were sick but I had spent the last few months refusing to accept that you were going to leave us.
I didn't realize how close I had gotten to you until your funeral. You weren't my biological grandpa but you were more of a grandparent to me than anyone had ever been. I remember standing in front of that room of all the people that loved you, listening to all the wonderful stories of how much you helped others, and when I got up to speak all those emotions hit me, all those memories, all the times I would never get back.
I will never forget how Stephen and Beth came up to hold me up as I said my goodbyes to you. I love you so much. And the fact that you have been gone for 5 years still hurts as much as the day you passed.
I love calling Grandma's phone and when they don't answer I get to hear your voice one more time on the answering machine. I love you Grandpa. And I hope that if there is a heaven or some wonderful place that we go after we die that you can look down on me and be proud of the woman and the mother I have become.
I love you Grandpa.

<3 So sorry love

Quoting Reilly and Lila's Mommy:" I have gone the whole day in a funk. Everything I did went to crap and I think it's because of the day. ... [snip!] ... we go after we die that you can look down on me and be proud of the woman and the mother I have become. I love you Grandpa. "

Awh.! I'm sorry for your lost.! <3

Thanks guys. I can't believe how much I miss him. Especially after how much time has passed. He was such a wonderful man  

Quoting Reilly and Lila's Mommy:" Thanks guys. I can't believe how much I miss him. Especially after how much time has passed. He was such a wonderful man  "

Yeah, i know.! Its crazy how time flies.! My dad passed away from cancer 10 months ago. Seems like yesterday.

I don't see how people say it gets easier..I don't think it does. Not when you had that special bond between someone you love.