Here's my story when I found out I was pregnant I was so happy scared but happy , I accepted the fact of this new chapter in my life and I was ready ... The day came for me to tell my mother and her first response was well your no having it , I was broken I never expected my own mother to say that about my baby , every single day after that I would hear about how much I am breaking her heart and how my dad is going to be broken and he will do something completely irrational . After 11 weeks I could not take this regret and guilt she had placed on me and I agreed to an abortion for some reason that day I was numb I had no feeling. Days after I began to regret my decision , I knew that was not what I wanted to do , why did I do it ? My life was completely distroyed now every single minute of the day I think about my abortion and how my life would be right now if I was still pregnant I can not stop replaying that day in my mind and what I should have done and what I can never take back, I am not sure what to do
The Ďwhat ifísí are horrible. Iím still dealing with them. Have you thought about counselling? Itís really all I can suggest, Iíve just started and although we havenít really spoken much about my abortion yet, I already feel my psych will be able to help me deal a lot better. You sound like you have a lot that is built up in your mind, and getting it out could be good for you?
Iím not sure how you would feel about it but another thing that has helped me was acknowledging the loss of the baby properly. No one knows about my abortion so I didnít have a memorial or anything, I just brought a silver bracelet with a love heart attached, Iím going to have the heart engraved with a quote for the baby, and I wear the bracelet everyday. It took me a long time, but I was finally also able to name my baby.