Please help

Here's my story when I found out I was pregnant I was so happy scared but happy , I accepted the fact of this new chapter in my life and I was ready ... The day came for me to tell my mother and her first response was well your no having it , I was broken I never expected my own mother to say that about my baby , every single day after that I would hear about how much I am breaking her heart and how my dad is going to be broken and he will do something completely irrational . After 11 weeks I could not take this regret and guilt she had placed on me and I agreed to an abortion for some reason that day I was numb I had no feeling. Days after I began to regret my decision , I knew that was not what I wanted to do , why did I do it ? My life was completely distroyed now every single minute of the day I think about my abortion and how my life would be right now if I was still pregnant I can not stop replaying that day in my mind and what I should have done and what I can never take back, I am not sure what to do

 
I'm sorry you're feeling this way.
Don't let someone make those decisions for you in the future, you're an adult. I hope you find some peace soon.

I'm sorry you had to go through that. The only thing you can do right now is move on with your life, and become a stronger person.

Big hugs!

The ‘what if’s’ are horrible. I’m still dealing with them. Have you thought about counselling? It’s really all I can suggest, I’ve just started and although we haven’t really spoken much about my abortion yet, I already feel my psych will be able to help me deal a lot better. You sound like you have a lot that is built up in your mind, and getting it out could be good for you?

I’m not sure how you would feel about it but another thing that has helped me was acknowledging the loss of the baby properly. No one knows about my abortion so I didn’t have a memorial or anything, I just brought a silver bracelet with a love heart attached, I’m going to have the heart engraved with a quote for the baby, and I wear the bracelet everyday. It took me a long time, but I was finally also able to name my baby.