frowns and stern voices vent

before i got pregnant i maintained 120lbs and im 24. when the docs and nurses asked me a bunch at first around 11-14 wks if i was gaining any weight i was like, "no, none. i eat, and im trying to eat more now, but im not gaining anything."
they all kept telling me i needed to gain weight. 30-45 lbs is apparently the normal amount a pregnant woman gains. APPARENTLY.
basically in other words, or at least how i took it, they were telling me i was too skinny and in order to get healthy i needed to get fatter.
so i tried.
i ate, and ate, and around 20 weeks is when i noticed id gained 5 lbs. i was happy!
now, at 30 weeks, im 155lbs.
so, now they're saying keep it down to one pound a week.
they frown and say im gaining too much weight and even though im eating for 2 doesnt mean to eat and snack all day even if im hungry.
IM LIKE WHAT THE SmUrf.
looking at me, you can tell im not 120lbs, but im not a smurfing fat smurf. i just have chunk on my hips now and a BABY BELLY. for real. its REALLY not that bad.
it could smurfing be worse. i could be one of those obese women on tv trying to have a baby.
they just make me feel awful and stupid and fat for putting on weight like THEY TOLD ME TO DO in the first place.
anyway,
i eat healthy. i snack healthy. at night i crave chocolate, and pizza ends up in the kitchen every 2 weeks or so (i dont buy it, but i eat it when its infront of me!!)
my boyfriend makes all the unhealthy fried food and i eat that up too. but just once in a while when he gets a wild hair to fry some smurf up. but ever since they told me i was a smurfing cow ive been avoiding stuff too greasy and sticking to my usual stuff.

anyway, this is just a vent i guess about my stupid health lol love.

I had the same issue with my last pregnancy. I wasn't gaining.. and my OB told me he was getting concerned. Then... I gained 8 lbs one month.. and he looked at me and said " I know I said you need to gain weight, but 8 lbs is a little much"

they are doing their job mama... I'd rather a dr who risks offending me, than one who won't do their job.

How tall are you?

Maybe you can start keeping a food diary. You really don't realize how much smurf you eat until you record it

lol true. im 5'3. a food journal is a good idea~
today ive had 2 bananas and a bowl of cereal. i just bought a bunch of apples and strawberries and oatmeal yesterday so i AM going to cut out bad food as much as i can. but when i go broke it comes down to "take what you can get" foodwise so i cant always be picky.