Severely depressed

im sorry hun . i have to been extrememly depressed and when i was 9 years old i tried taking my life. its hard to feel like no one understands you , but there are people out there who do . if you need to talk to someone i am here but there are also suicide hotlines that you can talk to .

I was 10, 12, 16, 18....It takes a lot of me to think about the pills because from how it has made me feel before my body just wants to reject any pill I take. I feel so gross. I miss my church, I feel like such a horrible person. I feel like if my mom was still here I would have someone who understood and I would have gone through most of the stuff that happened after she passed...

I'm sorry you're goin through a tough time. Maybe not your family, but people out there understand and want to help. I have has 2 attempts. Last attempt I was on life support for 6 days but woke up. I was soooo mad! My dad attempted almost 5 years ago and succeeded first try. Why couldn't I?? I hated life. I got help. I got to Counceling. I have been dealing with things better and now I'm married and due in 4 weeks. I can't imagine missing any of this. I hope someday you feel the same. To finally look at life and see everything you have to live for. But I understand, during both attempts I had nothing to live for. You just have to take it moment by moment. And each new day is a celebration that you made it past yesterday. It's not easy, but I hope someday for you it's worth it.