re: Bible Accountability

Ok, I'm new in here. Work with me...  

I need this so much where I am in life and just come along in my faith and then let it go. I have such bad anxiety I can't even go to church. I know it's all in my head, but it's hard. I need to talk with ladies who aren't judgmental and really can help and lead me in a more positive direction.

Good morning!

<blockquote><b>Quoting grace life:</b>" Hope everyone in here had a good day! We were really busy with the homeschool co-op and stuff, I'm exhausted. "</blockquote>


Awwe. Make sure to take time for yourself too mama.

<blockquote><b>Quoting That Elise Girl ™:</b>" Ok, I'm new in here. Work with me...   I need this so much where I am in life and just come along ... [snip!] ... I need to talk with ladies who aren't judgmental and really can help and lead me in a more positive direction. Good morning!"</blockquote>

I have anxiety too. If my family doesn't go with me I can't bring myself to go. Idk why. We always sit in the back cause we have kids and it's easier to run in and out. But when we don't take kids I still can't sit with people behind me. I have awful anxiety about it. It's totally irrational but I can't help it. Idk what your anxiety comes from or is of. If u need to talk I am here.

Quoting lolajessup:" <blockquote><b>Quoting That Elise Girl ™:</b>" Ok, I'm new in here. Work with me... ... [snip!] ... about it. It's totally irrational but I can't help it. Idk what your anxiety comes from or is of. If u need to talk I am here."

Thanks so much! I have the anxiety and depression and then PTSD/panic attacks/social anxitey/OCD and bipolar type 2.

So, I always want to stay at home, I am a HUGE homebody. I also suffer with Crohns Disease and that keeps me from being around a lot of people because of my immumity being so low and people coughing/colds and such. I get sick real fast  

<blockquote><b>Quoting That Elise Girl ™:</b>" Thanks so much! I have the anxiety and depression and then PTSD/panic attacks/social anxitey/OCD and ... [snip!] ... being around a lot of people because of my immumity being so low and people coughing/colds and such. I get sick real fast  "</blockquote>


Awwe   I have been diagnosed with depression and anxiety but I don't get treated for it. I haven't went to get diagnosed for anything else so it's hard to say what all is wrong with me. I know I get intrusive thoughts and I'm starting counseling for what I believe to be PTSD from my preg and birth. But I'm Hoping that goes away.

Quoting lolajessup:" <blockquote><b>Quoting That Elise Girl ™:</b>" Thanks so much! I have the anxiety ... [snip!] ... thoughts and I'm starting counseling for what I believe to be PTSD from my preg and birth. But I'm Hoping that goes away."

I've done a lot of things in life I am not so proud to have done... I don't know if talking about abortion in here will make women not like me as much... but it was 7 years since my last one. I have a lot of fear that something or someone is out to get me now. It's been years. Even after knowing I was forgiven for it... I still think I deserve pain all the time. I suffer a lot. It's hard.
And it's only gettting worse.

Quoting That Elise Girl ™:" I've done a lot of things in life I am not so proud to have done... I don't know if talking about abortion ... [snip!] ... I was forgiven for it... I still think I deserve pain all the time. I suffer a lot. It's hard. And it's only gettting worse. "

My mom is always saying I need to not be so negative and be positive and get into church and have the faith I grew up in. She says to not allow the devil to give me bad thoughts. I try to fight it all, just very hard.

I went yesterday to see a neurologist because I have been having head pains in the back section of my head and into my neck and shoulders... then get told its probably a nerve problem and that I need a MRI asap on my brain and spine. Then most likely a nerve block. I feel like life just doesn't want to give me a break and my health is just one thing after another. I'm only 27  

<blockquote><b>Quoting That Elise Girl ™:</b>" I've done a lot of things in life I am not so proud to have done... I don't know if talking about abortion ... [snip!] ... I was forgiven for it... I still think I deserve pain all the time. I suffer a lot. It's hard. And it's only gettting worse. "</blockquote>

Nobody is here to judge you. I'm sure we all have skeletons. I have a lot of those same feelings *hugs* I also feel like I deserve to suffer. Like its a punishment for all the wrong I have done and still do. I try to tell myself it's irrational but idk why I think that way.

Quoting lolajessup:" <blockquote><b>Quoting That Elise Girl ™:</b>" I've done a lot of things in life ... [snip!] ... its a punishment for all the wrong I have done and still do. I try to tell myself it's irrational but idk why I think that way."

Hugs! Thanks so much! I hope that this thread and making the "right" friends will lead me in the right direction I need to be going in.

Hugs.

<blockquote><b>Quoting That Elise Girl ™:</b>" I went yesterday to see a neurologist because I have been having head pains in the back section of my ... [snip!] ... block. I feel like life just doesn't want to give me a break and my health is just one thing after another. I'm only 27  "</blockquote>

I have a lot of unexplained health issues too. I always have. I hope you can get some help. Have U seen a chiropractor? It helps my back and neck pain and my headaches a lot.

And as far as what your mom says I agree. I feel it's the devil who puts such bad thoughts in my head. If I didn't have God to turn to I'd probably be dead right now. So try to count yor blessings  

Quoting That Elise Girl ™:" My mom is always saying I need to not be so negative and be positive and get into church and have the ... [snip!] ... have the faith I grew up in. She says to not allow the devil to give me bad thoughts. I try to fight it all, just very hard. "

Welcome!! And trust, this is not a thread for judgement. We are all sinners. That must be a big guilt, I never had one but I did have a miscarriage, and I do think it was probably due to my smoking weed and cigarettes. I carry some guilt for that too, but I've asked for forgiveness and changed my ways. And I think your Mom is right, the devil will do that if you allow him. I don't go to church either, I could go by myself, DH won't come with the kids because he doesn't want strangers(or ANYbody for that matter), watching our kids. It sucks, because I would like to go and be a part of a church community, but I don't want to go alone. We read our Bible almost every night, but I would like to make some real friends outside the computer that share my faith. At this point for me, I think that will have to wait until our children are all a few years older. If you feel too much anxiety to go to church, you could look at the page before this. Grace Life posted a list of a few t.v. pastors that you could look up on you tube or find on the Trinity channel that preach the good word!

Quoting lolajessup:" <blockquote><b>Quoting That Elise Girl ™:</b>" I went yesterday to see a neurologist ... [snip!] ... such bad thoughts in my head. If I didn't have God to turn to I'd probably be dead right now. So try to count yor blessings  "

Oh yes, I def hear you on this one! I will be looking into seeing a chriopractor after I go through all these tests and find the exact problem  

Quoting Lady GooGoo™:" Welcome!! And trust, this is not a thread for judgement. We are all sinners. That must be a big guilt, ... [snip!] ... a list of a few t.v. pastors that you could look up on you tube or find on the Trinity channel that preach the good word!"

I will def check into those! My husband is the same ways and he also wants to rest when he is off. He works 7 days a week, so if I do go...its just me and the boys and getting up and getting them ready and such by myself. My mom watches Joel Olsteen(sp) on Sundays... but I don't care to much for him...

Quoting Lady GooGoo™:" Welcome!! And trust, this is not a thread for judgement. We are all sinners. That must be a big guilt, ... [snip!] ... a list of a few t.v. pastors that you could look up on you tube or find on the Trinity channel that preach the good word!"

And thank you for the welcome and kind words!