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Quoting Mrs. Potato Dick:" This is long.. but I had to get it out before my brain explodes. Today my son hit some little girl in ... [snip!] ... doped up on happy pills that work for me then I can try to make it through life without making everyone around me miserable."

Wow  

<blockquote><b>Quoting Mrs. Potato Dick:</b>" This is long.. but I had to get it out before my brain explodes. Today my son hit some little girl in ... [snip!] ... doped up on happy pills that work for me then I can try to make it through life without making everyone around me miserable."</blockquote>




 

i would definitely try another type of medicine.

& try and think positive. don't wake up thinking those things, instead be like "i'm gonna make it a good day" and really listen to what he wants to do or play and let him be the leader.

Quoting EBF*JB:" Wow  "

Yeah. I'm expecting some negative comments from it, but I NEEDED to get it out. I feel so low right now, I just want to run away.

My nicotine craving isn't helping either.

<blockquote><b>Quoting Mrs. Potato Dick:</b>" This is long.. but I had to get it out before my brain explodes. Today my son hit some little girl in ... [snip!] ... doped up on happy pills that work for me then I can try to make it through life without making everyone around me miserable."</blockquote>




I went through something really similar. It was awful. No one wants to feel that way. Mine was most definetly ppd. Meds helped a tiny bit but not a whole lot. Getting pregnant again is actually what helped me, odd, I know. But I think it shifted my hormones back inline or something. Sorry, I can't offer better help

Aw that is really sad.   I'm sorry you feel so bad. Is he getting extra lovings from DH?

I hope medicine and therapy helps you, love.

It sounds like you are taking the proper steps to try and get things sorted. I really hope you can get it figured out soon, I get where you're coming from (trust me, I've a very busy stressed out mother myself) but its crucial that your son doesn't pick this vibe up from you, young children don't understand why and tend to blame themselves for everything  

Quoting Mrs. Potato Dick:" This is long.. but I had to get it out before my brain explodes. Today my son hit some little girl in ... [snip!] ... doped up on happy pills that work for me then I can try to make it through life without making everyone around me miserable."

I'm sorry you feel this way...... Maybe take a few days of alone time, and rest and try to rejuvenate. How old is he? Maybe try doing something together that YOU enjoy together (like cooking, or going for walk or reading a book) something you both can do together so he feels he is needed, wanted and valued.. Where is his dad? How does he feel about him? Grandparents? Anyone that can step in right now and help you out.

Have you tried to spend some time with just him? See if you can make some "Mommy Son" dates with him. Do some fun stuff. As kids grow up you have to develop relationships with them as people, and that can be hard.

Also, you might want to try to get out of your comfort zone. If he's sticky and dirty, try to do some of those things with him. Try to play in mess and do "guy things" that he wants to do.

It seems like there is a huge disconnect there, so I'd try to work hard at developing a new relationship with him. You're his Mom, but at a certain point you also have to develop a sort of friendship, with him as a person instead of just as your "kid" you know?

*hugs*

Quoting ~~My Pet Wussy~~:" <blockquote><b>Quoting Mrs. Potato Dick:</b>" This is long.. but I had to get it out ... [snip!] ... what helped me, odd, I know. But I think it shifted my hormones back inline or something. Sorry, I can't offer better help"

 

i went off my meds when i got pregnant. then i fell into a slump and had two abortions scheduled, which i didn't go to either obviously. gradually things got better and i feel amazing. i go to my psychiatrist in a few weeks, we're gonna talk about going back on meds before i deliver baby to try and counteract PPD but idk. i feel amazing and happier than i've ever felt in my entire life right now and it's a drag thinking about going back on meds.

Quoting JiLLiAN.:" i would definitely try another type of medicine. & try and think positive. don't wake up thinking ... [snip!] ... instead be like "i'm gonna make it a good day" and really listen to what he wants to do or play and let him be the leader."

Girl, I've tried that. Trust me, I have.

The other day, I woke up in the GREATEST mood. I don't freaking know what was going on in my brain, but it was the best feeling. I took the kids to Starbucks and me and my son had a conversation while drinking our drinks. We went shopping and it was all good until we got back home. I don't know what went off in his brain, but he started acting a fool. My good mood was gone.

Quoting ~~My Pet Wussy~~:" <blockquote><b>Quoting Mrs. Potato Dick:</b>" This is long.. but I had to get it out ... [snip!] ... what helped me, odd, I know. But I think it shifted my hormones back inline or something. Sorry, I can't offer better help"

No need to apologize. You're always around to offer me advice and I appreciate you more than you know <3

Quoting Serena van der Woodsen:" Aw that is really sad.   I'm sorry you feel so bad. Is he getting extra lovings from DH? I hope medicine and therapy helps you, love."

No, that's the problem... DH and I are in the same boat.

I can completely understand how you feel, I've been there and sometimes I fall back into it. What really helps is if I make an effort to get myself out of the house with my girls, let them go ape smurf at the park or in a field and I will sit and read a book, do some beading, hand stitching on some of my garments.
Right now, my kid keeps begging me to play and I'm just all "meh" and shoo her away... can't they entertain themselves for a bit? I also have days where I am not their biggest fan, but I think it's normal not to like someone every single day of the week. So I don't believe you are a crappy parent.