5 years later

I still think about it EVERY DAY. I was 11weeks and my due date was 1-27-07.
I was in a smurffy living situation with my mom and her smurf bag boyfriend. I always had a voice in my head that I didn't want to do it, but I didn't think my boyfriend would stick around and I was 18 and stupid.
So fast foward to almost a yr later and I just got my own apt, I find out I'm pregnant and my due date is 1-27-08. And if that's not creepy enough, my daughter was born on her due date.
Every time I think about it and how far along I was I feel like such a piece of smurf and it bring tears to my eyes. I know I could've done it and given that baby a good life.
I just have so many feelings about this of guilt and regret, I don't think ill ever get over it.
I just had to let this out, I've never really talked to anyone about it other than SO. By the way, same bf from said pregnancy.

*hugs*
Don't beat yourself up about it. Sounds like it wasn't a good situation to bring a baby into. You did what was best for you and your baby.

in sorry, i hope it gets better for u  

Sweetheart I wouldn't feel bad about it now. I miscarried twin in may 2010. The same date the following year I gave birth to a little boy right down to the time I lost them, my son is also a Gemini the sign for twins. I think sometimes those little similarities are there for a reason.

I can't not feel bad about it. I wouldn't feel so bad if I miscarried. I chose to do it, and the guilt and remorse will never go away, and its never been so strong as it is now.

Quoting jess m401:" I can't not feel bad about it. I wouldn't feel so bad if I miscarried. I chose to do it, and the guilt and remorse will never go away, and its never been so strong as it is now."

I understand momma . I wish there were real words of comfort that would make you feel better. I'm sorry for your loss  

<blockquote><b>Quoting Elizabeth 0315:</b>" I understand momma . I wish there were real words of comfort that would make you feel better. I'm sorry for your loss  "</blockquote>




I know there's really nothing anyone can really say. I just had to get it out. Thank you:-)