re: umm is this impossible?

Quoting loststars12:" yea I think open adoption seems like a good idea. It seems like the best of both worlds...."

Thats good. There is a Birth mom forum http://forum.baby-gaga.com/about569678.html if you want to go in there and ask questions.   You can always talk to me if you would like.  

I would say don't rush into anything, I mean you still have some time to think things through. It's hard when you fall pregnant and its not what you want right now, maybe you should have a think about it logically, make a list of everything you would have to do or need for if you did have the baby. Sometimes the hardest thing is the most sensible.

Quoting loststars12:" yea I think open adoption seems like a good idea. It seems like the best of both worlds...."

I agree, and I wish you the best of luck during that process. If you need a friend I'm here for you<3 and like Brittany817 I am praying for you also.