I just want it to be over already :(

I'm in court tomorrow and I am so worried it's unbelievable I just want it to be over with already. I want to know if he's even gonna show up and if he does what is he going to say. It's driving me bloody crazy and if it gets adjourned I don't know how much longer I can carry on worrying like this.

I've got my LO laid next to blowing raspberries galore and all I can think is I don't want to share you with that horrible man who did nothing but wish us both dead and be vile towards me and about you.

I know they'll never take him from me but it's the little things like how he threatened to take him from me that worries me. I'm just a mess, I just want it to be this time in 24hours and all over with where I'll know where I stand, I know what to feel.

Gah I hate this

Awh... Im sorry...