Quoting ~*Icat*~:" yea, maybe it is the "we get better". I appreciate your understanding though. thank you. I feel so ... [snip!] ... parenting a child with high or special needs. Its a taboo subject, and feeling this way makes me feel like I'm a smurffy parent."
It makes you human, we forget that we are people too, not just parents. This may sound mean, but we laugh. We didn't at first and we don't laugh at tantrums, but if he is stimming really loud or breaks out in a fit of giggles at the most awkward of times we laugh-it took us a long time to find our humour again. Sometimes we get so caught up in how it should be that we don't see it from their perspective and when you do things make sense a little more and get a little easier. It took me 6 months to realise that my son cried hysterically when he went to school because he had to go in through a different door, so when we figured it out my other two kids and I made a game about going through a different door-we made it fun and the crying stopped. When my son wakes me up at ungodly hours of the night I still giggle if I hear him laugh or echo something like "shut the door", some of the only words he has ever said. You will find that the more you see things from his angle and embrace his different abilities that people tend to relax around you as well. I think my kid is pretty cool and it has made my other two kids more accepting of others. There is always positive in every situation, but when we are stuck in negative it is hard to get out. Hang in there mama-ever need to vent I am here.