DH just doesn't get it

I mind just won't stop, I cant keep myself put together, docs gave mr antidepressants but it just doesnt help. In 2010 I lost my twins dur to a miscarriage. It was hard, but nothing to what happened last September 11. My brother in law and his wife, dh's brother lost their beautiful baby girl at 8 days old, due to SIDS. Yesterday was Lillian's birthday. We lit off lanterns, went to the cemetery and had a potluck at their house. Naturally, I was a wreck. I miss their baby, I know nothing in comparison to how much they do, but I miss her. DS is 8 weeks old, he was conceived a month after Lillian grew her wings. I was so anxious and scared during my pregnancy and still am. DS sleeps in his bassinet still, so I can touch him and feel him breathe at night. DH and me got in a fight about it last night, his reasoning is that DS is perfectly healthy. But so was Lillian and most of the others babies that are stolen by SIDS. I don't sleep, I am always a wreck. My heart aches for ny brother in law and sister in law and their son, they hurt so much. I lay in bed and think about them, play out all the what ifs and cry. I don

I know dads love their children but nothing compares to the love a mother has for her children...therefore I dont think a lot of men understand why we mothers can be the way we are sometimes when it comes to our children...or children in general...in your case your niece. Men in my opinion have the ability to think in a much simpler - black and white fashion where women tend to over analyze and worry. I think its just the lovely differences between men and women lol. But my heart goes out to your family and your in laws for your loss. Losing a loved one is devastating...I could not imagine the unbearable pain of losing a child.

So sorry for your and their loss..that has to be difficult =(
To ease YOUR mind..have you thoguht about an ANgelcare baby monitor..i have one for my son. i LOVE it..iw ould not have been able to sleep during those newborn days without it!