Am I in shock?

My great grandmother just died today around noon & I feel like its not affecting me the way it should. I am upset that she didn't live to see my son but when I told her I was pregnant she was 100% supportive & she never questioned me, judged me or treated me like i'd done something wrong(much like alot of my family did) I was around my great grandmother a good bit growing up & in my mind she was truly a saint. She was very religious, she never drank or smoked, she attended services every week & she truly did live a sin free life for the most part so I have always kinda thought of her as an angel. I can't for the life of me seem to feel sadness from this though, I'm not sure i've really accepted it yet but I will miss her alot. Has anyone else gone through something similar? SO just lost his grandfather last year but he was more attached to his grandfather(SO is his grandfathers only blood grandson & our son would have been his first great grandchild)

I was sad when my Nan died a couple months ago, but I was also happy for her as well. I'm not 100% sure what I believe but if it's as good as they say it is, then she's much better off there than here.

I didnt cry when my great grandfather passed away. I think it was because of the fact that I knew it was going to happen and at least he wasnt suffering anymore.
If she was otherwise health it could just take some time to sink in. Im sorry for your loss and she sounds like she was a wonderful lady!

You could be in shock.
I lost my Grandma who died in March of 2011 and the next day after she died I found out I was having a boy. I was there when she died. It's weird because when I got to the hospital I was only there for 5 minutes before she took her last breath. I didn't freak out or cry I guess you could say I was in shock. I didn't feel any sadness at her viewing or funeral. I think it hit me a month or two later and I am still affected by her death. She was too young to die. We were VERY close. She considered me a daughter and raised me. I miss her and hope to see her again.
I am so sorry for your loss and it will be hard and you will miss her.

Thank you all, I'm sorry for your losses as well. I just feel a bit guilty for not seeming to have any sad feelings atm & I know its going to hit me hard when my son gets here but I hope to still stay connected with my family even though she wont be here anymore

Quoting  Amanda(::" Thank you all, I'm sorry for your losses as well. I just feel a bit guilty for not seeming to have any ... [snip!] ... to hit me hard when my son gets here but I hope to still stay connected with my family even though she wont be here anymore"

There is no need to feel guilty. Everyone deals with it in their own way. You could be one of those people who stays strong for everyone else.

My great-grandmother died 2 weeks ago and I did the same exact thing. It was like I felt no emotion. It was wierd.. I thought maybe I was turning evil or something. lol

Quoting Lacy Bastian:" My great-grandmother died 2 weeks ago and I did the same exact thing. It was like I felt no emotion. It was wierd.. I thought maybe I was turning evil or something. lol"

Same here! haha

Quoting  Amanda(::" Thank you all, I'm sorry for your losses as well. I just feel a bit guilty for not seeming to have any ... [snip!] ... to hit me hard when my son gets here but I hope to still stay connected with my family even though she wont be here anymore"

Don't feel guilty everyone grieves differently.

Quoting *Turtles*:" Don't feel guilty everyone grieves differently."

I just don't want to come off as heartless to everyone  

Quoting  Amanda(::" I just don't want to come off as heartless to everyone  "

You won't. I was the closest to my Grandma and I didn't act overly sad. I have a habit of hiding my emotions.
My mother on the other hand who my Grandma wasn't fond of makes a huge deal out of her death. I think my Mom likes pity and attention. It's sick.

I didn't cry at first when my step dad died, his death was really sudden so I think I spent a lot of time in shock. It was about three months later when I was going through an old diary and found his birthday written in it that it really hit me. I cried for a solid two hours. I just think it takes time to really accept it, you know? I am so sorry for your loss x

It will probably take you time to accept it, considering you were close to her. I found my grandma dead 2 months after i turned 16. I cried yes, but it took me years and i still cry. I feel like she is here with me a lot. I was in denial for awhile i still listened to a voicemail she had left me.She helped raise me when i was younger when i didnt have a father figure and i always spent time with him. Plus she died july 4th in the late evening and she asked me to stay the night and i said no. I wish i wouldve went and i also blamed myself