father overdosed

my dad died wen i was 8 weeks pregnant im 23 weeks now and it feels like yesterday I found him cold, blue and dead on his bed may 2 2012 was the worst day of my life. i was dads baby girl my whole life... idk wat to do anymore.

I am so very sorry to hear this  

Quoting Victoria Richards:" my dad died wen i was 8 weeks pregnant im 23 weeks now and it feels like yesterday I found him cold, ... [snip!] ... blue and dead on his bed may 2 2012 was the worst day of my life. i was dads baby girl my whole life... idk wat to do anymore."

OMG I am so sorry  

I'm sorry for your loss.

its ok i do what i have to do to suck it up, i just dont want to be a mess when the baby is born. its a boy, my dad was so excited he would go around the house saying "thats gonna be papal's baby". i have flash backs in my head like movie clips. im a mess of depression, and im angry all the time. im hateful.

I'm so sorry for your loss.. 

Quoting Victoria Richards:" my dad died wen i was 8 weeks pregnant im 23 weeks now and it feels like yesterday I found him cold, ... [snip!] ... blue and dead on his bed may 2 2012 was the worst day of my life. i was dads baby girl my whole life... idk wat to do anymore."

I am so sorry I lost my dad almost a year ago and I can tell you that it is really hard to go through that my prayers are with you. when you get down just think what would my dad want me to do and it helps for me anyways

I realize he would want me to raise my child so very different than i was raised. i grew up with a drug dealer daddy, a stuck up mother, two ungrateful sisters. but even thought my dad sold drugs he provided me with food and shelter and did wat it took to pay the bills then he became a herion addict. i tried for so long to save him but then i realized i couldnt. only he could help himself.. i feel like i failed.

Quoting Victoria Richards:" I realize he would want me to raise my child so very different than i was raised. i grew up with a drug ... [snip!] ... addict. i tried for so long to save him but then i realized i couldnt. only he could help himself.. i feel like i failed."

it was not your responsibility to make him better I know that it may feel that way but its not you need to let your self off the hook because you couldn't do any thing differently