I am really struggling with the loss of my pregnancy. I was 12 weeks 3 days when I started hemorrhaging and needed the D&C. I feel guilty. I wished for so long that God would take my baby from me and hold him/her safely in his arms since I'm not in a good place to have another one right now. I finally had made the decision to keep the baby about a week/week and a half before everything happened. It hurts so bad sometimes, other times I feel okay about it. I was supposed to be pregnant right now, taking belly pictures, getting ready for this baby. Sometimes I don't know how to cope. On one hand I would do anything to have my baby back, on the other I am thankful that God saw I could not provide for another child and waited for me to love my baby to take it. My little one did not die unloved, unappreciated, unwanted, or a burden. For that I am thankful.
Quoting *restless*nights*:" im so sorry for your loss i cant say it enough, ive been there and it doesnt feel great at all. i would never wish this hurt upon my worst enemy. hang in there im always here to talk if you need me! "