re: ~*Official May 2013 Due Date Thread*~

Quoting Hannah.:" I need advice.. or to vent or something. I am 9 weeks 1 day today.. we have had two losses in the past, ... [snip!] ... that I can't truly be happy for this pregnancy and that makes me sad. It's like I am convinced something is going to go wrong."

I can relate Hannah   We lost our first at 6 weeks. It is so hard to get excited for the fear of losing them again. I'm sorry you have to know that pain. Sending you positive thoughts. Every ultrasound makes me feel a little bit better. Give it a few weeks and you will be able to breathe a sign of relief. HUGS to you!

<blockquote><b>Quoting Hannah.:</b>" I need advice.. or to vent or something. I am 9 weeks 1 day today.. we have had two losses in the past, ... [snip!] ... that I can't truly be happy for this pregnancy and that makes me sad. It's like I am convinced something is going to go wrong."</blockquote>




Honestly there isn't much you can do is other than get passed that moment and into trimester 2. I've been a mess this pregnancy and I'm finally getting better about it at 12 Weeks.

<blockquote><b>Quoting Bow Making Mama♥:</b>" Yay! I'm glad everything went well!"</blockquote>



Thank you! :-)

<blockquote><b>Quoting Mel & a girl named Pey:</b>" My stitch is in! I might not have to do bed rest! I'm sleepy tonight but feeling decent!"</blockquote>




Fingers crossed for you!!

Quoting bazinga!:" <blockquote><b>Quoting Mel & a girl named Pey:</b>" My stitch is in! I might not have ... [snip!] ... in! I might not have to do bed rest! I'm sleepy tonight but feeling decent!"</blockquote> Fingers crossed for you!!"

Thank you! Def going to do some kind of bed rest but it would be nice to be able to go visit people on their couches some!  

<blockquote><b>Quoting Hannah.:</b>" I need advice.. or to vent or something. I am 9 weeks 1 day today.. we have had two losses in the past, ... [snip!] ... that I can't truly be happy for this pregnancy and that makes me sad. It's like I am convinced something is going to go wrong."</blockquote>




I had a loss in July at 7 weeks. I'm currently 10w5d. EVERY time I use the bathroom I check for blood, especially if I'd felt any "gushing" (TMI maybe, but like when you feel discharge). My m/c I had no cramping ever, only bleeding. We've had ONE u/s, at 6w1d and even tho the tech KNEW we'd JUST had a loss (got my BFP 8 weeks after my m/c) we STILL didn't get to see the screen at all OR hear the hb after SHE saw it on the screen. I've had ONE OB visit, in my 8th week, and b/c it was so early, they wouldn't even try to listen for the hb. I don't have my next appt until I'm 12w5d so it's still 13 days away. Today I have NO symptoms, my boobs didn't even hurt when I took my bra off to get into my pj's at THAT started the day after I got my BFP and was my only symptom until very recently (and anything I've had this week I can chalk up the germ factories that are my 7 year old and 4 year old).

Other than my bro and SIL who asked me point blank after I'd said I wasn't drinking, our families have no clue. ONE IRL friend and a handful of coworkers know. I don't even want to tell anyone, it's part of the reason I don't have a due date on m profile. I'm just NOT excited; it doesn't seem real yet. I NEED to hear the hb. I NEED to see the baby on an u/s. And I'm praying my OB sees things my way on the 9th.

So yes, I know exactly how you're feeling. And it SUCKS    

And now it's time to attempt sleep even tho I'm not tired  

<blockquote><b>Quoting JenniT:</b>" I can relate Hannah   We lost our first at 6 weeks. It is so hard to get excited for the fear of losing ... [snip!] ... makes me feel a little bit better. Give it a few weeks and you will be able to breathe a sign of relief. HUGS to you!"</blockquote>




Thank you so much. I am sorry for your loss.   I guess it's just something you never get over. I am walking on eggshells with this pregnancy. We saw baby and heard the heartbeat a week ago but even then I'm not convinced. I feel like I need an ultrasound every day to relax.

<blockquote><b>Quoting Mel & a girl named Pey:</b>" <blockquote><b>Quoting Hannah.:</b>" I need advice.. or to vent or something. I am ... [snip!] ... passed that moment and into trimester 2. I've been a mess this pregnancy and I'm finally getting better about it at 12 Weeks."</blockquote>



2nd trimester maybe it will feel more real, then I will worry about my cervix crapping out. Sorry I can't think of a better wording for that lol. Feels so far away! Congrats on 12 weeks!

Quoting Hannah.:" <blockquote><b>Quoting Mel & a girl named Pey:</b>" <blockquote><b>Quoting ... [snip!] ... about my cervix crapping out. Sorry I can't think of a better wording for that lol. Feels so far away! Congrats on 12 weeks!"

Thank you! I would def talk to them about a preventative cerclage if you are worried. Even if they won't do it, it's worth talkign about. I got mine today!

<blockquote><b>Quoting bazinga!:</b>" <blockquote><b>Quoting Hannah.:</b>" I need advice.. or to vent or something. I am ... [snip!] ... an u/s. And I'm praying my OB sees things my way on the 9th. So yes, I know exactly how you're feeling. And it SUCKS    "</blockquote>




That is spot on how I feel. Then I feel guilty for not enjoying this pregnancy since it is what I have been wanting for so long.
I don't have a due date on here for the same reason, and I was hesitant to start posting in this thread. We're planning on announcing at 13 weeks, hopefully I will feel better by then.
Our last pregnancy we had a missed miscarriage. Didn't know anything was wrong until I went in for my ultrasound at 9 weeks, there was no baby. Waited a week then had a d&c to remove the pregnancy sac.   I kind of lost my mind after that. Of course we had announced already so I had to deal with telling everyone and having them say things that they meant well but hurt more. So I'm scared to announce.
Sorry for the negativity, Jeesh! I have just been bottling this up and needed to release it. I want so badly to be happy! This should be a time to celebrate.
I really hope your OB let's you see baby! Even without your history, you would think they would! It just reassures you to see baby is ok.

<blockquote><b>Quoting Mel & a girl named Pey:</b>" Thank you! I would def talk to them about a preventative cerclage if you are worried. Even if they won't do it, it's worth talkign about. I got mine today!"</blockquote>

I'm going to my next appointment, at 11 weeks on the 6th! Was it quick and simple?

<blockquote><b>Quoting Hannah.:</b>" <blockquote><b>Quoting bazinga!:</b>" <blockquote><b>Quoting Hannah.:</b>" ... [snip!] ... your OB let's you see baby! Even without your history, you would think they would! It just reassures you to see baby is ok."</blockquote>




I don't see it as being negative; you're being honest about your feelings. My DH doesn't want to hear about how I'm not excited so I don't talk abou being pg at ALL except on here OR if I'm in pain (ligament or whatnot).

We'd TTC the one we lost but after the loss I was truly at peace with having the 2 we've already got. I was d.o.n.e. I'd been planning on getting my Mirena put back in and having DH get the snip. I was almost as shocked getting my BFP this time as I was with my 1st (that time I was hysterical tho).

I'm praying everything is OK this time around. This pg is really NOT at a good time tho. We'd wanted to be in our own home and financially stable and last week I was FINALLY offered a position that would allow us to be in a better situation and I had to turn it down.

I work for the govt and before my m/c I'd put in for a civilian deployment. Didn't hear anything for MONTHS but inquired about my application after my m/c. Again, didn't hear anything. Last Friday morning I got an email offering it to me. They wanted me to leave Dec 3rd for 179 days. No can do; can't deploy while pg and I'm due May 19. I was really upset; double my salary in 6 months and have something good for my resume to (hopefully) further my career.

Quoting Hannah.:" <blockquote><b>Quoting Mel & a girl named Pey:</b>" Thank you! I would def talk to ... [snip!] ... I got mine today!"</blockquote> I'm going to my next appointment, at 11 weeks on the 6th! Was it quick and simple?"

Yes, my doc decided to put me under (they eliminate a drug that causes defects) and the procedure took like 10 mins...me coming out of it took a bit...so procedure quick but you are there for a few hours. I had some normal cramping and spotting but its pretty much stopping already. They also gave me antibiotics and an anti-inflammatory.

Im a wreck. I feel horrible. Ive been down this week cause of how bad Ive felt. Went to the dr. This morning. Appt went great. Baby is good. Got an u/s, measuring 13wks. Came home, hubby left for work, went to get some apple sauce and chirped at my bird I got in Aug, she didnt chirp back like usual. Went and looked around the cage and she had died. I went into hysterics. She was a parrotlet. Im so sad now. I keep losing things to death. My daughter, my uncle...

Im a former zookeeper. Im very attached to my pets.