re: BG Confessions

Quoting bbbt:" I don't know you all that well, but what I have seen of you, I think you are very bright, kind, caring, and funny. I wish you didn't feel that way about yourself. You have great potential. "

Thank you so much. That means a lot to me.

Quoting Back to Noob Status:" Thank you so much. That means a lot to me."

<3 Anytime you need to, PM me. I'm going down the same road. Some days, I wish that I'll just crash my car on the way to work.

I'm working on it... I just try to think about my loved ones, and how much pain it'd cause them to lose me. I never want them to hurt.

Quoting Back to Noob Status:" I do think about killing myself. A lot. And you know what? I think it will happen. Not today, but someday ... [snip!] ... I attempted suicide. Talk to me then, I wouldn't have thought to have use a gun. Now? Blowing my head off doesn't scare me. "

Well I really really hope that will never happen and that you stop feeling that way. I see you a lot in these forums and you're ridiculously smart and awesome. I dont know you personally but I do know that the world would lose a treat if you left it.

Quoting Ꭶwan♥Nemö:" Well I really really hope that will never happen and that you stop feeling that way. I see you a lot ... [snip!] ... ridiculously smart and awesome. I dont know you personally but I do know that the world would lose a treat if you left it."

This!

I have realized that I am quick to say no sex for him. But yet he is there... He is here whenever I need him. I hope that he wants to date me, after what I look like now.

I have about had it with my 3 year old. I'm so close to calling his father and telling him to take him. All he does is scream at me tell me I'm mean hit me and others defies me...time outs don't work and I have resorted to spankings, and they don't work either..I'm stressed..I can't really discipline him with a baby attached to my boob.

This stress is really getting to me. Liam wakes up a lot and it seems I never get to sleep anymore. SO doesnt really help me out much. All Ive done today is cry and get really frustrated with DS which makes me feel worse cause hes just a baby. I feel like Im losing it.

Today as I was driving home I had the overwhelming urge to flip my car and kill myself.

I feel so worthless,
so inept. So stupid.
I just feel like my life is not worth living anymore.

Quoting bbbt:" Today as I was driving home I had the overwhelming urge to flip my car and kill myself. I feel so worthless, so inept. So stupid. I just feel like my life is not worth living anymore. "

Don't say that. You are a wonderful person!

Why do you feel that your life is not worth living?

Quoting Back to Noob Status:" Don't say that. You are a wonderful person! Why do you feel that your life is not worth living?"

It seems like I can't do anything right anymore. I am a disappointment to everyone. I feel like a terrible girlfriend, a terrible teacher, a terrible human being. I feel like everyone is so frustrated with me right now that they would be relieved if I died.

Quoting bbbt:" It seems like I can't do anything right anymore. I am a disappointment to everyone. I feel like a terrible ... [snip!] ... a terrible human being. I feel like everyone is so frustrated with me right now that they would be relieved if I died. "

No they wouldn't. They would be so hurt, your family, your SO, everyone. No one is perfect, and even though I don't know you irl, from what I've seen you are great person to talk to.

This is your depression speaking. I get this way too. It starts as a whisper and then becomes more nagging to the point of feeling irrational.

Have you tried any meds?

Quoting Back to Noob Status:" No they wouldn't. They would be so hurt, your family, your SO, everyone. No one is perfect, and even ... [snip!] ... way too. It starts as a whisper and then becomes more nagging to the point of feeling irrational. Have you tried any meds? "

Yeah, I've been on Zoloft for the past eight years basically. I don't know what happened. This year has just been awful for me, and for no real reason. I had my depression completely under control, and it just sneaked back up on me.

Quoting bbbt:" Yeah, I've been on Zoloft for the past eight years basically. I don't know what happened. This year ... [snip!] ... been awful for me, and for no real reason. I had my depression completely under control, and it just sneaked back up on me. "

You may be building up a tolerance to Zoloft since it has been in your system so long. Have you talked to your doctor about raising the dose or switching meds altogether?

Quoting Back to Noob Status:" You may be building up a tolerance to Zoloft since it has been in your system so long. Have you talked to your doctor about raising the dose or switching meds altogether?"

Well I was trying to wean off it. My doctor had some concerns with my liver. I was on 100mg last year, and we have slowly weaned me down to 50mg which is what I'm on now. I just don't think it's enough. But I don't know if I can up the dose if my liver isn't functioning at 100%.

Quoting bbbt:" Well I was trying to wean off it. My doctor had some concerns with my liver. I was on 100mg last year, ... [snip!] ... what I'm on now. I just don't think it's enough. But I don't know if I can up the dose if my liver isn't functioning at 100%. "

Oh no.  

Definitely tell him/her that you are feeling depressed. They may have alternative treatment plans and if worst comes to worst, there is electric/shock therapy. I've heard it can do wonders for depression.

Also, let your family know how your feeling, that you feel that they would feel relieved if you were dead. They will reinforce what I'm saying and let you know that they love you.


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