re: BG Confessions

Quoting Jude the Apostle:"\."

I share your fear. When I do start losing weight I become obsessed with it and it's just not healthy.

I miss cutting myself. I use to love seeing the blood comming down my arm, wrist and leg.

Quoting bbbt:" "

I wish I could just be healthy.

Quoting Jude the Apostle:"

God me too. And I wish I didn't have to rely on stupid pills to get through the day.

Quoting BlackVelvet:" I miss cutting myself. I use to love seeing the blood comming down my arm, wrist and leg."

-hugs-

I feel like most of my life is just a lie. Everything I am today is something I always said I'd never be.

Quoting bbbt:" -hugs-"

I havent self harmed myself in nearly 2 years but dammit i miss it. Its so hard not to do it some days

Quoting BlackVelvet:" I

Two years is a long time. You are clearly a very strong woman. I believe in you.

i am only staying for my daughter. living with him isnt bearable anymore
and ik i couldnt afford to be on my own

I've cheated on almost every guy I've ever dated.
...Except my husband. He's my best friend, and for whatever reasons, I've never even thought about it.

I also have an abusive ex that I would off if I ever had the chance. Honestly. I've never really told my husband the extent of what went on. I'm afraid he'll look at me as weak or stupid.

<blockquote><b>Quoting mommommommyma:




I feel like i don't even know who I am. I'm not comfortable with how others percieve me and don't know how or what to change. I kind of feel like I'm crazy and need to be on meds but I just have no idea.

<blockquote><b>Quoting Colt's mommy:</b>" <blockquote><b>Quoting mommommommyma:




  yep

I look forward to a glass or two of wine when everyone goes to bed everynight. I hate that I think like this but some days are just so horrible I need some sort of something to make me feel good... I have to be either drunk or high recently to feel like myself.

Quoting redneck mamma:""

This is often the highlight of my day!!! Put everyone to bed (hubby included) and just drink a few glasses. Good lord, it's nice....

But I always feel guilty when I stay up later than DH. Which is constantly.

Quoting *sarah*jean*:" This is often the highlight of my day!!! Put everyone to bed (hubby included) and just drink a few ... [snip!] ... just drink a few glasses. Good lord, it's nice.... But I always feel guilty when I stay up later than DH. Which is constantly."

I am always up later than DH too... I am ready for bed tonight but DD is not wanting to finish eating anytime soon it seems... I think she is eating one pea at a time. It is really annoying because I am ready to go to bed and she is still up.