Quoting -aycн ѕweez-:" Yup, im scared of death. I dont want to die. I dont believe anything happens to you or your soul when ... [snip!] ... you die... I feel like when i take my last breath, its gonna feel like im suffocating.. It seriously scares the smurf out of me."
I am so scared of death. I remember when i was with my first boyfriend and i was with him for a while that i would randomly start thinking of death and would cry to him saying that I don't want to get old and die, and that i better go before him, old or not, because i couldn't stand to be without him. That i wished we could die together in bed as an old couple.
But now that I'm with my husband and we have a child it's worse. I don't want my child to go through the pain of losing a parent. I am so scared of death because i'm not sure of what I believe to be honest. It's terrifying that one moment i could be thinking of something, then the next i'm gone, just gone. I'm afraid i might be a soul just floating around and seeing blackness.
I'm even more afraid to lose my parents. I will absolutely be a wreck when i lose my parents. And my mother is Diabetic, bad, so i will most likely lose her first. I just can't bear the thought of it.